tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-82062473518310508812024-02-18T21:31:23.081-05:00Bathtub Jeff Is WatchingFletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.comBlogger40125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-33011948357647663552011-06-10T17:28:00.001-04:002011-06-10T17:30:07.798-04:00Why We Need a "Slut Walk"<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:worddocument> <w:view>Normal</w:View> <w:zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:trackmoves/> <w:trackformatting/> <w:punctuationkerning/> <w:validateagainstschemas/> <w:saveifxmlinvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:ignoremixedcontent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:donotpromoteqf/> <w:lidthemeother>EN-US</w:LidThemeOther> <w:lidthemeasian>X-NONE</w:LidThemeAsian> <w:lidthemecomplexscript>X-NONE</w:LidThemeComplexScript> <w:compatibility> <w:breakwrappedtables/> <w:snaptogridincell/> <w:wraptextwithpunct/> <w:useasianbreakrules/> <w:dontgrowautofit/> <w:splitpgbreakandparamark/> 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mso-para-margin-top:0in; mso-para-margin-right:0in; mso-para-margin-bottom:10.0pt; mso-para-margin-left:0in; line-height:115%; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:11.0pt; font-family:"Calibri","sans-serif"; mso-ascii-font-family:Calibri; mso-ascii-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-theme-font:minor-fareast; mso-hansi-font-family:Calibri; mso-hansi-theme-font:minor-latin; mso-bidi-font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-theme-font:minor-bidi;} </style> <![endif]--> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">“Women should avoid dressing like sluts in order not to be victimized.”</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">This statement was issued by a representative of the Toronto Police Department earlier this year.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>As a result, a group of people in Toronto began a movement to combat this kind of wrong-headed thinking and the first “Slut Walk” was born.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">Had this been a single statement issued by a single representative or even a single police department with an offensive stance, I would have applauded the Toronto group for taking action, standing against the blaming of victims and that would be that.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">But, of course, we know better than that.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>This statement reflections a widely held view, not only by some law enforcement officials, but by people all around us that choose to blame the victims for the violent crime of rape.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">Why, more than with any other crime, do people feel the need to blame the victims of rape?<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>The reason seems fairly transparent: People want to assure themselves that this couldn’t happen to them (or their loved ones).<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>‘I don’t dress like <i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal">that</i> therefore I won’t be raped.’<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>‘I can protect my wife and daughters from being raped if I make sure they dress modestly.’<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>These are the kinds of things we say to ourselves, consciously or unconsciously, to make ourselves feel better, to make ourselves feel safe.</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">But, of course, we know better than that.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>There is the pesky little issue of facts that easily subvert this kind of thinking.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>The statistics on the victims of rape make it all too clear that the victim’s attire is not, should not and cannot be considered a factor.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">The facts are these:<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Every 45 seconds someone is sexually assaulted in the United States.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Over a quarter of all rape victims are raped by their husbands, over a third by an acquaintance and over 15% by a relative.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>In total, 74% of all sexual assaults are perpetrated by people well known to the victim.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Almost 6 out of every 10 sexual assaults occur in the victim’s home or the home of someone they know well.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Less than 5% of all rapes are committed by strangers. 15 out of 16 rapists never sees the inside of a jail cell for their crime.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>And of course, these are only the cases of rape that are reported to law enforcement.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>It is believed that more than 60% of all rapes are never reported.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>And what types of rape are least likely to be reported?<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Rape committed by a spouse, acquaintance or family member.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">Given those statistics, does it seem reasonable to consider the way a woman was dressed as a factor in her being raped?<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Does a husband rape his wife because she is dressed “like a slut”? <span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Is the 1 out of every 7 women who is raped in college also guilty of being the 1 out of 7 women in college who dresses immodestly?<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Moreover, is the 1 out of every 10 males who is raped guilty of looking like a slut?<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>How about the 61% of rape victims who are females under the age of 18?<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Are they dressing so provocatively that strangers, acquaintances or, worse yet, family members are unable to control themselves? <span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>The truth is, rape has little to do with sex and everything to do with power.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>Women are not raped because their clothes is too revealing.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style:normal">People</i> are raped because rapists want or need to feel power.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>They want to victimize – why would we want to make their job easier by helping shame their victims?</span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">The message shouldn’t be: don’t dress like a slut.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>The message needs to be: don’t rape.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">The message is painfully simple and yet, so many people miss it.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>So many people want to give themselves and their families a false sense of safety by making something the victim did or said or wore the reason for their rape.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>That needs to stop.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">We need to change that kind of thinking.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>We need to make people more comfortable with coming forward about having been sexually assaulted.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>We need to let them know that we don’t judge them.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>We need to put the blame on the perpetrators.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>We need to make sure that more than 1 out of every 16 rapists does prison time.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>We need our wives and daughters, mothers and sisters to feel free to dress however they feel comfortable.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>We need to show our support for victims of sexual assault.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>We need to tell them that their victimization ends when they come forward and ask for help.<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span>We need a “Slut Walk.”<span style="mso-spacerun:yes"> </span></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%"> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">For the statistics used in the above article and further resources and information: </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.crisisconnectioninc.org/sexualassault/rapestatistics.htm"><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%">http://www.crisisconnectioninc.org/sexualassault/rapestatistics.htm</span></a><span style="font-size:12.0pt;line-height:115%"></span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><a href="http://www.rainn.org/statistics"><span style="font-size: 12pt; line-height: 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intention.<span style=""> </span>She smiles and even laughs now at things that actually make her happy, rather than just gas.<span style=""> </span>She grows out of her clothes so quickly that it’s almost impossible to keep up.<span style=""> </span>In the last month she started having solid foods.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal">She keeps finding new sounds to make, new ways of expressing herself.<span style=""> </span>I feel like an anthropologist getting to watch the creation of a new language.<span style=""> </span><span style=""> </span>First, it was just random monkey sounds, then she moved to grunts and growls and just the other day she started forming ‘b’ sounds.<span style=""> </span>Now she won’t stop saying “bah bah bah” in a way that sounds eerily similar to the name “Bob Loblaw.”</p> <p class="MsoNormal">I love just watching her learn, studying her as she studies herself and the world around her.<span style=""> </span>She’s making connections, recognizing patterns, she’s even developing a personality.<span style=""> </span><span style=""> </span>I love studying her almost as much as I love being her father.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""> </span>And yet, with each new development my heart breaks.<span style=""> </span>I love seeing her advancing, being there for her first taste of solid food, her first laugh, her first bath . . . these are things that I’ll never forget and I am so glad to have been a part of.<span style=""> </span>But still . . . with every new thing she does, that little wiggly 9 lbs. 4 oz baby gets further away.<span style=""> </span>That little creature that came into my life in the middle of the night is slipping away more and more every day and this new, beautiful, delightful little person is taking her place. <span style=""> </span>I both dread the marks on the tabula raza of her mind and look forward to the image that slowly develops on that slate.<span style=""> </span>I will always love the person she is becoming and always miss the person she used to be.<span style=""> </span>And somewhere in the middle is the person that she is, and I love her most of all.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal">I never thought I’d feel like this.<span style=""> </span>I never imagined what it would be like to know that I’m the only father she’ll ever have.<span style=""> </span>The pressure is enormous and there are days, honestly, when I don’t think I’m up to the challenge.<span style=""> </span>This is the most important, most difficult, most expensive and most terrifying thing I will ever do. <span style=""> </span>And I am so grateful every day to both my wife Kris and to our daughter Valkyrie for giving me the opportunity to do it. <span style=""> </span></p>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16827830981218584929noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-11569367700018058542009-02-14T22:23:00.000-05:002009-02-14T22:26:12.031-05:00Six Months: A ValentineIn the last six months I haven’t done much blogging. Life somehow got in the way of writing about life. But, I feel like it’s about time I recorded some of it. <br /><br />After moving out of my house in August, I moved in with one of my closest friends and my life changed completely. I ended up staying longer than expected . . . in fact I decided to stay for good. I now find myself with the family I never wanted to admit that I wanted and these five little women (Kris and her daughters: Eleven, Nine, Six and Four) have become my world. <br /><br />In the last six months I have experienced such a series of tragedies and triumphs, the likes of which I never could have imagined before. <br /><br />I’ve had to scrape together every cent I could in order to buy groceries, only to have to look Four and Six in the eye and tell them that I can’t afford to buy them pop because I hadn’t factored in the deposit when I was adding up the cost. I’ve gotten credit cards by the fistful, maxed them out just as quickly . . . lucked my way into the two best paying jobs I’ve ever had and still been a hairsbreadth away from not being able to keep a roof over their heads and food in their stomachs. The thought of not being able to give the girls the Christmas they deserved made me physically ill. And while I appreciate the weight loss I’ve experienced over the last few months, the accompanying grey hairs are a little less exciting. <br /><br />I’ve fought with the girls over dinner, struggled to keep them from killing each other, battled with them over vitamins, bath time, bedtime, laundry, dishes, and letting the dog out.<br /><br />I’ve sat in hospital rooms and watched Kris in crippling pain and been unable to do anything about it.<br /><br />I’ve woken up in the middle of the night to the sound of Four screaming, only to find that a pair of wet pajamas was the only problem.<br /><br />I’ve found the life I want and repeatedly found myself inches away from losing it all.<br /><br />And I’ve watched Kris shake off years of emotional abuse, stand up for herself and become the woman I knew she could be. I’ve watched her find a way to feed the children when I failed. She has become my partner, the love of my life and my <br />hero. <br /><br />When Six decided she would start calling me Daddy, tears welled up in my eyes. The next day, each time she called me Dave instead of Daddy I felt tiny pangs in my heart. Yet, each time Four throws her arms in the air and yells “Carry me!” I feel like a dad . . . even though she has a knack for doing it when my arms are full. When I carry her, and she grins and laughs and yells “Never put me down! Never!” it thrills me. When I told her the other day that she had to stop growing up she yelled the same “Never” and it broke my heart because I knew she was telling the truth. <br /><br />Maybe it’s because I missed out on so much of their lives so far, or maybe it’s just the way all parents feel, but I cannot stand the thought of them aging. I’m constantly reminded, though, of their inevitable march toward adulthood. Nine is already closer to 16 than 10. Six has turned into Seven. And Eleven is dangerously close to puberty. At least Four is still young enough that she gets her pronouns confused and has extravagant tales of her adventures with her best friend Hannah Montana.<br /><br />I’ve learned a great deal in the past six months. I’ve learned how to make quesadillas without setting off the smoke detector (that lesson was a long time coming, as the girls will attest). I’ve learned that you can get Four and Six to eat fish as long as you tell them that it’s chicken. I’ve learned that as soon as they are ready to ask for forgiveness, you have to be ready to accept it – even when you’re really not. I’ve learned that once you have four cats, two more doesn’t really make a difference. I’ve learned that one thing I enjoy more than learning is listening to my little women tell me about all the things they’ve learned. I’ve learned that plastic sheets are the greatest invention known to humanity. I’ve learned that you can lead a Six year old to dinner, but you can’t make her eat. I’ve learned that being Nine doesn’t mean that you can’t also be five. I’ve learned that you can fit six people in a Ford Taurus: it just isn’t pretty. I’ve learned what it means to fight for survival, and what sacrifice is. I’ve learned how generous my friends are. I’ve learned how easy it is to gain a child’s love and how hard it is to keep it. I’ve learned what it means to have a partner in life and what it means to be a father. I’ve learned that “Dave” can mean “Dad.” I’ve learned, too, that there is no way I can ever thank Kris or any of my little women enough for the time they’ve given me so far and the future they have promised to let me be a part of.<br /> <br />I know it isn’t much – it certainly isn’t enough – but this is my Valentine’s Day card to all of them. <br /><br />Thank you for being my family and letting me be a part of yours. I love you.Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-51166877480506370302008-12-19T09:27:00.003-05:002008-12-19T09:31:13.417-05:00Perhaps they were Mormons . . .I was house managing at Civic last night when, during intermission, a couple of women came up to me.<br /><br />“Who do we talk to if we have a problem with the show?”<br /><br />Frequently while house managing people will come to me with stuff like this. It’s a big part of the job. Often, their problem with the show is that their seats aren’t any good or it’s too cold, things like that. Sometimes it’s because of the actual content of the show. When Circle did The Who’s Tommy I had several people stop to tell me how disappointed they were with the theatre for putting on something so disgusting. This happens when people don’t care to find out what they’re going to see. Would you go to a movie without knowing what it’s about or even the rating? Maybe, but you really shouldn't if you’re someone who might be easily offended.<br /><br />“Well,” I said, “That depends on what the problem is.”<br /><br />“We thought,” one of the women began, “that this show was appropriate for children.”<br /><br />‘Motherfucker,’ I thought, ‘there must be a couple of swears.’ Swears, especially “goddamn,” set off a lot of fucking prudes. <br /><br />I said: “What is it in the show that you think isn’t appropriate?”<br /><br />“All the sexual material!” the other lady chimed in.<br /><br />Seriously? I mean, I haven’t actually watched the show myself, but it’s the musical version of It’s A Wonderful Life. You know, Jimmy Stuart,<br />everytimeabellringsanangelgetsitswings, a Christmas classic. There are a couple of swears in the play and the story revolves around a man contemplating suicide<span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">*</span> so I was ready to deal with that. It’s stupid, but as soon as these women started complaining about the content, I figured that that’s what it was going to be. After all: What the hell else is there that might possibly offend someone in It’s A Wonderful Life?!<br /><br />“Really?” I asked, trying extraordinarily hard not to sound incredulous. “Such as what?”<br /><br />“Well, at one point,” one of the women said, “there was a girl dancing in a purple tutu and she spread her legs and we could see EVERYTHING. Her whole crotch. Everything!”<br /><br />And I think to myself: ‘But it was clothed, right? I mean I can’t imagine an exposed vagina as part of the play.’<br /><br />“And our sons,” the other woman added, “Were like [eyes bugged out, mouth agape].”<br />No fucking kidding! If your kids are that repressed, I’m surprised they didn’t spunk themselves when there was visible ankle. If you want to raise serial killers, you are off to a fantastic start, ladies. <br /><br />“And it happened more than once,” the other woman added. “Do you think that’s appropriate for children?”<br /><br />I said, “My kids saw it and they didn’t have any problem with it.” I said.<br /><br />“Then I guess we have different standards because that is not appropriate. Did you watch the show?”<br /><br />I answered honestly that I hadn’t seen it.<br /><br />“Well you should have before you exposed your children to it. You should have watched it or gone to a rehearsal or something!”<br /><br />“You let them watch it without you?!”<br /><br />“My wife watched it with them,” I explained because it was way easier than saying ‘The woman who I have sex with and intend to marry who is going through a divorce from another man watched the show with them.’ <br /><br />I know I’m not the world’s greatest father, but I never imagined that bringing my kids to see It’s A Wonderful Life made me a bad father. I wanted to tell them that my four year old has Rocky Horror Picture Show memorized, but I was working and wanted to avoid a scene.<br /><br />“And another time in the show, when she’s getting ready for the wedding she drops her dress on stage and puts on another one.” The other woman said.<br />Mind you, she’s wearing a slip. Not a teddy, not a lacy little number, but a plain white slip. <br /><br />“And they were bending over” the other woman added, pantomiming bending over with breasts desperate to fall out of their casing. <br /><br />“We were told this was a family show! What do we do about this to make sure we don’t end up being exposed to things like this again?”<br /><br />Don’t ever go to a theatre again. Plays or movies. Stay in your fucking house; don’t turn on the fucking radio or TV. Get changed in the dark; adopt children so you won’t have to endure the degradation of sexual intercourse if you really need some kids to destroy with your insane and dangerous worldview<br /><br />“We want our money back!”<br /><br />I explained that I couldn’t do that and that they would have to call the theatre tomorrow and talk to people with actual authority.<br /><br />“How do we know this won’t happen again?” they asked.<br /><br />I said that, in this instance the play is based on a movie that’s been around for decades and dec—and she cut me off with a: “This is NOT in the movie! I watch it every year!”<br /><br />Now, I’ve never seen the movie all the way through either so I can’t attest to whether or not there is any swearing or anything like that but I got this exact same complaint when the theatre did Grease last year. People claimed that “They didn’t use words like that in the movie!” Actually, the theatre cleaned up the script. There are less dirty words in the play than there were in the movie but you saw the movie thirty years ago when you weren’t such a goddamn prude. I’m guessing it’s the same case with this one. Jimmy Stuart gets away with a few swears because he’s a war hero.<br /><br />I ended the conversation by letting the women know that if they had “that high of a standard” that they needed to do their research. They needed to call the theatre and ask if there was anything at all in the show that might possibly be offensive.<br />I told them all this knowing full well that any person they spoke to at the theatre or anyone they talked to that had seen the show would tell them the same thing: There is nothing at all that a sane human being would be offended by in this show.<br /><br />As they left I thought: “Have a nice night ladies and don’t come back. Be careful driving, too: it must be very difficult driving when you have to shield your and your children’s eyes from billboards lest they feature an allusion to human sexuality. <br /><br />Now I’m going to go home and have premarital sex.”<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);">*SPOILER: He doesn’t end up doing it. Just saying.</span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-78306148418715154172008-10-24T16:57:00.000-04:002008-10-24T16:58:59.790-04:00Facebook WarsA friend of mine posted the following as his status on Facebook:<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">Travis needs to keep remembering that God is in control of who will be appointed our leader, Go ahead Obama, run this country into the ground! </span><br /><br />What follows is my response and the brouhaha that came after, ending with my special lady swooping in to save the day. Enjoy.<br /><br />NOTE: Last names have been removed to protect the ignorant. <br /><br />Dave Fletcher at 3:34pm October 23<br />Since God talks directly to Bush and Bush is running the country into the ground, doesn't that mean that God is doing a pretty shitty job? How about giving the people a chance to run our country? Which is, I'm pretty sure, what the Constitution says should be the case. Let God run the churches and leave the government to the people.<br /><br />Lindsey at 3:44pm October 23<br />America was founded as one Nation UNDER GOD! Not one nation under the people.<br /><br />Troy at 4:34pm October 23<br />I say we elect Yoda<br /><br />Michael at 4:53pm October 23<br />One nation under Canada above Mexico...<br /><br />Travis at 5:59pm October 23<br />it's funny i did that just to see what people would put, and wow, dave i'm really sorry that you feel that way about the greatest president we've had since reagan, but hey if one is a true christian and that person is not being persecuted for their beliefs, they're probably doing something wrong-walt hedrickson<br /><br />Troy at 7:10pm October 23<br />doesn't it take like 270 electoral votes so one persons opinion/vote is not gonna break the bank on either side. Thunder Thunder Thunder CATS HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!<br /><br />Dave Fletcher at 10:06pm October 23<br />A) I hope Lindsey is joking (or does she really believe the version of the Pledge of Allegiance instituted in the 1950's is the founding document of our nation, rather than the Constitution which directly outlines a government for the people, by the people and of the people) and 2) Bush and Reagan are both great presidents? Wow, what's it like ... Read Moreliving on a planet that's shaped like a cube? You am Bizarro #1!<br /><br />Michael at 10:59pm October 23<br />Not to be against you Linds but that is from the Pledge of Allegiance. The founding fathers were Christian but they did no found the country as a Christian nation. Read this:<br /><br />http://www.au.org/site/PageServer?pagename=resources_brochure_christiannation<br /><br />Dave Fletcher at 11:35pm October 23<br />Many of them were Christian. All of them were secularists.<br /><br />Travis at 12:59am October 24<br />what lindsey is saying is that we are UNDER GOD, people can deny it all they want, come up with all the facts and figures they want, be are UNDER GOD! When you make all of these liberal points and views, you start to believe you don't need God, or that we created God, and that we ourselves can become Gods, which is exactly what the devil wants us ... Read Moreto do, but it's stated that people will have views just like yours in the bible dave, so all you are doing is just reassuring me that I am correct as a christian. Nib High football rules!!!!!(Billy Madison)<br /><br />Dave Fletcher at 9:02am October 24<br />I love how you act like "facts" are a bad thing. "Oooh, throwing facts at me, huh? What're you going to do next, provide evidence?! Ha ha. Loser." And I love that using ALL CAPS somehow helps make your argument for you. In which case this is one nation UNDER DOG! If only I could make my words even bigger and my logic even less logical then I... Read More could win. Screw "facts" lets just offer up nutjob arguments and far-right paranoia. <br /><br />Truly, sir, a master logician.<br /><br />p.s. Atheism is not a liberal view. It's just an enlightened one so it frequently happens that people who are rational are also liberal. Not always, but often. <br /><br />p.p.s. The Flying Spaghetti Monster warned that there would be detractors, therefore by believing in a false god you are just reassuring me that I am correct as a pastafarian. May you be touched by his noodly appendage.<br /><br />Travis at 10:57am October 24<br />there is a quote that i love "It is foolish to listen to someone who will not listen to you" of course this applies to both sides, but i know that if i am to truly become a strong christian that i must become the a-hole everyone will portray me to be, and i must stop being a hypocrite and stop sinning so much and preaching at the same time. I will ... Read Morebe hated, persecuted, even possibly threatened, but dave, i feel sorry for you and know that there are many people like you in this world who, through their views, have nothing to live for, no end outcome, no reason for being, and no absolute truth and certainty in life. because obviously man has shown time and time again how amazing we are at coming to our own conclusions and how we are fully capable of taking care of ourselves without anyone to watch over us, especially some war mongering, evil god that doesn't care for anyone. Yeah we do a bang up job alright.<br /><br />Michael at 3:15pm October 24<br />Now I might not believe and follow what Travis does 100% (the reason I no longer consider myself a Christian) but that is no reason to get insulting and offensive Dave. However, I will say that Christians do tend to be very intolerant and pushy with people who don't believe what they do. There's a little amendment called Freedom of Religion which ... Read Moremeans anyone can believe anything they want without criticism or the like. Christians are the only ones who willingly break that right by trying to (for lack of a better word) force their beliefs on everyone and getting up in arms and assaultive when someone doesn't want to believe what they do.<br /><br /> Kris Bonner at 4:33pm October 24<br />Absolute truth? Can someone please show me where the absolute truth is in Christianity? Everything I've been shown on the topic is either rooted in folklore ('cause, you know, Gawd didn't write the Bible himself and all), hypocrisy, or making people fear an unproved deity in order to make those who are of weaker body and mind follow them blindly.<br /><br />Return to the Dark Ages, anyone? Y'know, back to those days when religion kept people from reading and learning anything because, Gawd forbid, that may cause free-thinking and questions.<br /><br />Dave hasn't told any of you that you have nothing to live for, and that your pursuits are fruitless. So to say that he has nothing to live for, no end outcome, no reason for being and no absolute truth and certainty just shows how judgmental you non-judgmentalists really are. Aren't you supposed to leave that up to your higher being?<br /><br />Dave has plenty to live for. And a reason for being. And a chance at a very good outcome in life. To say he doesn't also condemns me, my children, and the wonderful life that the two of us see unfolding in front of our eyes.<br /><br />THIS is a prime example of why religion doesn't work. There are the hard-core fanatics (who are usually closet sinners, and prove pious only when it suits them), the on-the-fencers (those who agree with everyone; around Atheists? They are ... Read Moreone, too! Around a fanatic? They are too! Go figure.), the dis-believers (nope, no chance at anything outside of being worm food!) and those that remain agnostic, which is not the same as Atheism. I would love to believe that there is a plan for things. That this world turns for a purpose bigger than a simple gravitational pull. However, without science, that's not going to be proven to me. Condemning me and my family to hell because I am a proof-is-in-the-pudding type of person is sick and wrong. If you get this upset and want to really judge me, crucify me. I bet my suffering lasts far longer than the petty amount of time Jesus spent there.Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-16415178335424228182008-10-13T16:26:00.006-04:002008-10-13T16:52:06.925-04:00The Horror . . . The HorrorNOTE: This blog was originally posted a while ago and then removed. It was removed because a number of people thought that it was insensitive of me to be writing about my life in such a frank way (funny, it never bothered them before). Understand that the parties actually affected by the material in this blog had full knowledge of its contents (if not the details, at least the big picture) well before it was even written. While I feel bad that some people were upset by it, I feel even worse that I took it down. 90% of the time someone is upset by something I write in my blogs, that doesn't bother me all that much but I took this blog down because the comments and reactions I was getting sullied what was, and still is, an expression of my deepest and most sincere feelings. It was not meant to hurt, it was not meant to be a bombshell, it was meant to be a love letter. And it is for that reason that I am doing what I should have done in the first place, and I'm putting it back up.</span><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">As a bit of background: I’m getting a divorce.<span style=""> </span>This may come as a shock to some of you.<span style=""> </span>Sorry for that?<span style=""> </span>Many of you doubtlessly have questions as to the whys and wherefores, to which I say: none of your damn business.<span style=""> </span>Those of you who are owed explanations* will get them, but certainly not in a blog.<span style=""> </span>I may be tacky and insensitive, but I’m not that tacky and insensitive.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">So, okay, that’s our backdrop.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Since leaving my house, I’ve been staying with my best friend Kris.<span style=""> </span>It wasn’t necessarily my intention to come here and stay here, but she was the first to offer a couch and, well, one thing leads to another and here I am in the same place a month and a half later. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">One of the biggest reasons I’ve stayed here as long as I have is Jake Busey.<span style=""> </span>Yes, Jake Busey, star of <i style="">Tomcats </i>and <i style="">Hitcher 2. <o:p></o:p></i></p> <p class="MsoNormal">I probably need to elaborate on that a bit.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">See, on Labor Day weekend, Kris and I went down to Indiana for HorrorHound Weekend.<span style=""> </span>HorrorHound is a three day convention during which the who’s who of the Horror movie world rub shoulders with their fans.<span style=""> </span>Horror fans, by the way, are mostly like comic fans—pasty guys in black t-shirts who are all either overweight or underweight, wear glasses and have creepy facial hair—so I didn’t have a very difficult time trying to fit in.<span style=""> </span>And while I’m not the biggest horror movie fan around, Kris is.<span style=""> </span>She’s as big a geek for <i style="">The Devil’s Rejects</i> as I am for <i style="">Heroes</i>.<span style=""> </span>So being at a convention like this with her is a real treat.<span style=""> </span>She absolutely comes alive—this is her in her element.<span style=""> </span>Throughout the weekend, people actually came up to Kris to get their picture taken with her (and she wasn’t even wearing a Zombie Thor costume).</p> <p class="MsoNormal">While I was just going to the con’** to hang out, schmooze and get away from the trials and tribulations of “real” life for a weekend, Kris was going to volunteer.<span style=""> </span>By offering beard scratches to Bill, the guy in charge, she was able to land a gig as the Jason Mewes wrangler for the weekend (that’s Jay from <i style="">Jay and Silent Bob</i> fame, for those of you who are Mewes-illiterate).<span style=""> </span>Unfortunately Mewes’ flight was delayed so Bill decided to send Kris to work Jake Busey’s table.<span style=""> </span>When I heard that, I sent her a sympathetic glance in which I tried to convey the thought “Sorry you got stuck with Busey (read: douche), better luck next time.” </p> <p class="MsoNormal">As it turns out, my sympathy was unwarranted.<span style=""> </span>Jake Busey is awesome.<span style=""> </span>There, I said it.<span style=""> </span>Jake Busey is a great guy.<span style=""> </span>In fact, almost everyone I met there turned out to be awesome***.<span style=""> </span>Kane Hodder (Jason from <i style="">Friday the 13<sup>th</sup> 7, 8, 9 </i>and <i style="">X</i>) is both a hulk and a sweetheart of a man.<span style=""> </span>Dee Wallace Stone (Mom from <i style="">E.T.</i> and <i style="">Cujo</i>), Derek Mears (the new Jason in the upcoming <i style="">Friday the 13<sup>th</sup>****</i>), and Jeffrey Combs (<i style="">Re-Animator</i> and <i style="">The Frieghteners</i>) are all incredibly sweet and adorable.<span style=""> </span>Joe Knetter (<i style="">Zombie Bukkake</i>) hides a tender heart beneath a thick wall of perversion.<span style=""> </span>He and Mike Christopher (Hare Krishna Zombie from the original <i style="">Dawn of the Dead</i>) have actually become personal friends since the con.<span style=""> </span>And, of course, Tom Savini (special effects wizard and Sex Machine from <i style="">From Dusk Til Dawn</i>) not only signed Kris’ arm, but was as excited as a school girl when she showed him that she got it tattooed over.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">The weekend was a blast and provided a much needed escape for both of us.<span style=""> </span>We got to kick back, have fun and just be ourselves for three days without worrying about divorces and kids and unemployment and everything else.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal">On the ride home on Sunday, the real world came crashing down . . . along with Godfrey, my beloved car.<span style=""> </span>One moment we were driving past Anderson, Indiana marveling at the plumes of smoke from a house fire and the next moment, every light in the car came on and forward propulsion was replaced with simple momentum.<span style=""> </span>I pulled over to the side of the road and, as is my typical response to car troubles, I decided to dive into oncoming traffic so I wouldn’t have to deal with it.<span style=""> </span>Kris calmed me down (luckily, unlike me, she took auto shop and knows something about cars).<span style=""> </span>We popped the hood, she took a look, decided it was a problem with the cooling system and after relying on the kindness of a stranger, we found ourselves in a Motel 6 in Anderson while poor Godfrey was being towed (off hours on a holiday weekend) to a dealership in Muncie in the hopes that they would be open on Monday.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal">They weren’t.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">So we sat in a Motel 6 for almost 48 hours.<span style=""> </span>There was a grocery store across the street, but no fridge or microwave in the room so we could only buy things that could be eaten and stored at room temperature.<span style=""> </span>Of course, the fact that Kris has Celiac’s and therefore cannot eat anything containing gluten makes finding food a little tricky under the best of circumstances.<span style=""> </span><span style=""> </span>Luckily, next door to the Motel 6 was a Red Lobster and seafood is something that both she and I can eat.<span style=""> </span>Unluckily, it’s not the cheapest thing around and I had spent the last of my money buying a wasted tank of gas for Godfrey.<span style=""> </span>But luckily, the manager at this particular Red Lobster had a daughter with Celiac’s so they were really good about making sure that everything they brought to us was uncontaminated.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal">We spent the day on Monday cooling our heels in the Motel 6 and doing some much needed laundry.<span style=""> </span>I had a moment of terror when I pulled the laundry out to fold it and was convinced that I had shrunken all of Kris’ clothes.<span style=""> </span>Turns out, though, she actually just is that tiny.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">On Tuesday, after half a dozen calls to the dealership in Muncie it became clear that Godfrey wasn’t going anywhere any time soon.<span style=""> </span>So, we rented a car (by the way, what’s with rental places that only do in state rentals?<span style=""> </span>Screw those bastards!) and made our way back home, leaving Godfrey in Muncie with a broken engine and a $4,800 asking price to get him fixed.<span style=""> </span>Thanks to friends far more generous than I could ever deserve, I’ve managed to pay off the expenses incurred while in Anderson and am working my way towards a solution to the car problems. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">All along the way to Indiana, at the convention, and home from Indiana (including the 48 hour layover in Anderson) Kris and I talked.<span style=""> </span>About movies and relationships, pasts, the present and the future.<span style=""> </span>We watched the better part of a <i style="">Dirty Jobs</i> Marathon and ate rice bars.<span style=""> </span>We were stranded, we were screwed and we were bizarrely happy the whole time.<span style=""> </span>I’m not really known for handling stress well, especially when large sums of money are concerned, but somehow I never freaked out.<span style=""> </span>Except, of course, when Kris discovered her ability to fart on command and nearly forced me out of the motel room.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">When we got home, Kris had an email from Jake Busey.<span style=""> </span>He thanked her for all of her work this weekend<span style=""> </span>and then he added: “It was great hanging out with you and Dave.<span style=""> </span>He’s a great guy and he loves the shit out of you.”</p> <p class="MsoNormal">While this wasn’t really news for either of us, it was, and had been for a while, an unspoken secret between the two of us.<span style=""> </span>Neither of us was looking for it, neither of us really wanted it or is in a position where it’s terribly convenient, but there it was.<span style=""> </span>And Jake Busey was the first one to acknowledge it.<span style=""> </span>Jake Busey put it out there.<span style=""> </span>And he was right.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal">Even after a weekend of horror movies, dead baby dolls, zombies, serial killers and $4,800 car bills the most terrifying thing was the simple little truth that Jake Busey laid out for me:<span style=""> </span>I am in love . . . the horror, the horror.</p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span style=""> </span></p> <p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" class="MsoNormal">*Which is pretty much no one.</p> <p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" class="MsoNormal">**That’s what us hip folks call “conventions.”</p> <p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" class="MsoNormal">***With the notable exception of a particular comic book artist with a penchant for sending pictures of his genitals to the cell phones of women who are uninterested in them.</p> <p style="color: rgb(255, 0, 0);" class="MsoNormal">****It’s not a remake, it’s a duck.</p>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-73681638492250256152008-08-10T23:10:00.004-04:002008-08-10T23:27:40.002-04:00Mind Dump: Beware the Fire BurstThis has been one of the most significant, stressful and painful weeks of my life. And really, that’s all my fault. But, at this point, none of it is any of your business so instead of dealing with all of the things I should be dealing with and will be dealing with in the weeks, months and years to come, I’ve decided to just do a mind dump about other things.<br /><br />--<em><strong>The Dark Knight</strong></em> is, in fact, the greatest movie ever. I saw it at midnight on opening night and then again this week. Rather than illuminating flaws in the film, the second viewing actually made me appreciate it even more. It’s even better than I originally thought. While <strong><em>Iron Man</em></strong> was buckets of fun and I will gladly watch it again and again, <em><strong>The Dark Knight</strong></em> transcends the super-hero genre (and yes, there are now officially enough of them to have a whole genre to themselves). And I know everyone is talking about Heath Ledger’s performance<span style="color:#ff0000;">* </span>but y’know what? I am too. Absolutely wonderful. I know there are Nicholson loyalists out there and that’s all well and good for you, but this is the Joker I have wanted to see all my life. The pencil trick was the moment when I knew this movie was going to exceed all my expectations. Oh, and let’s not forget Two Face. Gross. Just really, really gross. Captivatingly gross. I love it. Way to give that character a real arch, too.<br /><br />--“Chelsea Hotel No. 2” by Leonard Cohen seems to be my iPod’s favorite song right now. I wonder if it’s trying to tell me something. . . Maybe just trying to suggest that I’m ugly:<br /><br /><span style="color:#000099;">I remember you well in the Chelsea Hotel</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">You were famous, your heart was a legend.</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">You told me again you preferred handsome men</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">But for me you would make an exception.</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">And clenching your fist for the ones like us</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">Who are oppressed by the figures of beauty,</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">You fixed yourself, you said, "well never mind,</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">We are ugly but we have the music."</span><br /><br />--Started taking an anti-depression medication. One of the possible side effects is an inability to achieve orgasm. And I thought I was depressed before . . .<br /><br />--A week and a half ago I got the most impressive promotion of my life when I moved up from clothing rack to professional actor. I could explain but frankly, I feel like the story is pretty good right there.<br /><br />--I was driving behind an ice cream truck on the highway today. On the back of the truck were the words: <span style="color:#000099;">“Watch For Childrens.”</span><br /><br />--Highlights from a user manual for a friend’s old cell phone:<br /><span style="color:#000099;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">“Not demolished or modified cell phones, otherwise it will create mobile phones damage and leakage circuit fault.”</span> (So, demolishing it is bad for the phone?)<br /><br /><span style="color:#000099;">“In a few cases, some models of mobile phones in the car when the car may have an adverse impact on electronic equipment. Then please do not use cell phones so as not to lose security assurances.”</span> (So long as you never use it, your security assurances are all set.)<br /><br /><span style="color:#000099;"></span><span style="color:#000099;">“If LCD liquid into the eyes of the blind be dangerous.”</span> (How much worse can the eyes of the blind be damaged?)<br /><br /><span style="color:#000099;">“Battery, not to exert pressure on the force, otherwise they will cause battery leakage, overheating and the fire burst.”</span> (You get that, Battery? The Force is either strong with you, or it isn’t. Quit exerting so much pressure on it.)<br /><br /><span style="color:#000099;">“Do not welding battery End Otherwise, it will lead to leakage, overheating and the fire burst.” </span>(Here we have a sample of my two favorite things in the manual: The insistence that “Otherwise” needs to be capitalized and, of course, “the fire burst.” Beware the fire burst, Childrens.)<br /><br /><span style="color:#000099;">“Please do not demolish or converted charger Otherwise, it will lead to personal injury, electric shock, fire and damage to the charger”</span> (Not unlike with the phone, demolishing the charger is, in fact, bad for the charger.)<br /><br /><span style="color:#000099;">“Dirt poor contact will lead to the socket, brownout, which can not be recharged, regularly cleaned.”</span> (Keep those hobos away from your phone: Contact with the dirt poor will lead to the socket. And no one wants that.)<br /><br />--The new Facebook sucks. There: I said it. Show me a person who likes the new Facebook and I’ll show you someone who secretly wishes people still liked MySpace.<br /><br />--The front page of my condo association’s July newsletter featured the following poem. It’s a perfect example of the trifecta of things I love: Blind patriotism, authoritarian religion, and amateur poetry.<span style="color:#ff0000;">**</span> If you need to ask my feelings about it, we clearly haven’t met:<br /><span style="color:#000099;">“My Declaration of Independence” by Dorothy Siple</span><br /><span style="color:#000099;"><br />I’m glad I was born an American<br />In the Land of the brave and the free;<br />Out of millions of others less favored<br />God gave this great blessing to me.<br /><br />I rejoice in the freedom it gives me<br />For which a great price has been paid<br />By those who so cherished its value<br />That their lives on the altar were laid.<br /><br />But I’m more glad that I am a Christian<br />Who’s been freed from the shackles of sin<br />By the outpouring love of my Savior,<br />Who died my salvation to win.<br /><br />Now I’m free from the guilt that oppressed me,<br />No fear keeps me held in its power;<br />No task can defeat or distress me,<br />For God gives the strength for each hour.<br /><br />I am free to love all men as brothers<br />To forgive any wrong done to me;<br />To be cleansed from the poison of hatred<br />And to be whom God wants me to be!<br /><br />I don’t always need fair weather for sunshine;<br />There are other ways sunshine is sent.<br />All the things I possess don’t bring pleasure<br />Nor does worldly success mean content.<br /><br />So I greet each new day with excitement;<br />My heart wants to sing and shout!<br />I’m a SLAVE to the love of my Master ---<br />And that is what FREEDOM is about!<br /></span><br />--The show must go on.<span style="color:#ff0000;">***</span><br /><br /></span><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*Love the online petitions for an Oscar for Ledger, by the way. That’s a great idea . . . if the Oscars were decided by fucking Congress. It’s like people have no concept of either how awards are given or how petitions work. And, of course, online petitions are always a great tool if you want to do absolutely nothing but feel like you’ve done a little something.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"><br />**If you only read the last stanza, it actually makes the condo association seem really progressive. How many other condo associations would publish a poem about BDSM? Not nearly enough, I would have to say.<br /><br />***Some restrictions apply.</span><br /><br /></span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-25442911658920989852008-07-14T09:00:00.002-04:002008-07-14T09:03:30.308-04:00Soufflé: A dream deferredPanera Bread sells these awesome little soufflés. Four Cheese, Spinach and Artichoke . . . even a couple featuring various meats if that’s how you roll. I freakin’ love these little soufflés: Warm, eggy, flaky, cheesy, spinachy. Add in mango, eggplant or chocolate and you’ve covered every one of my food fetishes.<br /><br />I don’t want to overstate the case, but finding these soufflés means a lot to me. Now, every morning I wake up and I think “I want soufflé today”*. And it feels really good just knowing that. For the first time in my life, I know what I want. Y’know, for breakfast. My wife and I spend an awful lot of time discussing meals. It’s always hard to decide on something that sounds good to both of us and then of course, we have to determine how much effort we’re interested in putting in to preparation or clean up. But at least now breakfast is covered. The answer is easy. ‘What are you hungry for?’ ‘Why, soufflé, of course!’ And having that certainty feels really good.<br /><br />I’ve spent most of my life not knowing that I wanted soufflé. Now, I know I want soufflé and I want it so badly that I can taste it. I get up in the morning while my wife is still in bed, throw on some pants and head to my local Panera franchise or get a soufflé or two. Here’s the rub: my local Panera franchise is always sold out of the soufflés! I walk in the door, craning my neck to see around the person blocking my view of the bakery case, hoping, wishing, dreaming that there’ll be a couple of soufflés waiting there just for me, looking all steamy and take-me-home-y. But they’re not there. The signs are there. The teasing little signs reminding me of the delicious varieties of soufflé are there, but they’ve got nothing behind them. Just an empty, slightly greasy looking tray.<br /><br />No soufflé for you.<br /><br />I don’t think I’m asking for all that much. Just a fucking soufflé or two. But the universe is conspiring against me, keeping me from achieving my dreams of warm, flaky, French pastry. And no, a croissant or breakfast sandwich will not do, please don’t trivialize this, Lady Behind the Counter.<br /><br />Here’s where, through use of a literary device, the soufflé becomes something more than soufflé. Here’s where I show that the soufflé is really only an allegory for the rest of my life . . . a warm, flaky, delicious allegory, but still only an allegory. Or a microcosm, if you will: a single tiny experience that reveals the larger state of my life.<br /><br />I went to college for eight years. Most of that time I had no idea what I wanted to do after college, I just aimlessly forged ahead. It really wasn’t until I did my student teaching this spring that I knew for certain that I actually wanted to be a teacher. And having that certainty feels really good. So I waded into the job pool with optimistic visions of landing a good one . . . only to find that the pool was less of a pool and more of a puddle. A small puddle quickly evaporating. I’ve applied, I’ve even interviewed but those are all just the little signs reminding me of the soufflés I’m missing out on.<br /><br />No job for me. For months now. And without a job, I can’t get that which I really want in life: a goddamn soufflé. For the first time in my life, I know exactly what I want. But I can’t get it. So many other things in the way, too many other people beating me to the pastry counter. Happiness is so close but it looks like I may never grasp it. It’s getting harder and harder to even bother driving down to Panera. How long until I just give up and eat some toast? Or do I keep trying only to be let down day after day?<br /><br />What happens to a dream deferred? Does it fester like a sore and then run? Or will it fall like a soufflé not carefully attended to?Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-46717461750240429672008-06-28T10:46:00.003-04:002008-06-28T10:50:13.634-04:00Mommy IssuesI called my mom the other day. I’m a good son (not a great son, but a good one) so I do that from time to time. I called this particular time with a great sense of purpose. You see, I was driving home after having spent some time with a friend of mine. This friend, though both she and my mom would probably resent the comparison, reminds me a lot of my mother. Situationally, at least. She’s going through many of the same kinds of issues that I watched my mom go through years ago. Watching the situation from a new perspective I’ve gained a new appreciation for the overwhelming shit my mother went through and I realized that I’d never really thanked her, never told her how proud I was of her for simply having survived. So, I called.<br /><br /><br />For whatever reason, I’ve been strangely emotional lately. Other than an incident a year ago when I was watching <em>Spider-Man 2</em> on DVD, I don’t really remember the last time I cried. But for the past week or so I’ve been ready to crumple at the drop of a hat. You know that feeling where something terrible has happened but you’re in a place where you can’t let yourself fall apart so you buck up and as long as everything is normal, you’ll be fine, but if anyone so much as puts a hand on your shoulder as a sign of affection you’ll be reduced to a sobbing wreck? I’m finding myself in that place more and more these days and I’m not really sure why. Maybe its menopause. <span style="color:#ff0000;">*</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"><br /><br /></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span>Anyway, it was in one of these deeply, unpleasantly emotional states that I tried to call my mom. I wanted to tell her that I loved her, that I was sorry for not saying it more often and for never letting her know how proud I was of her, how much she meant to me and what a wonderful mother she was. I imagined trying to choke back my emotions as I talked, and ultimately failing like a hurricane wracked levy as she too started to cry. It was a mother/son moment worthy of the sappiest, crappiest Hallmark movie and I wanted it for us.<br /><br /><br />As is typical of our relationship, I couldn’t actually get a hold of her right then. We usually play a pretty good round of phone tag before catching each other—usually when I’m at work and she’s about to go to bed.<br /><br />The next night, we caught each other. By this point I was feeling momentarily less emotional and kind of embarrassed by the touching family moment that hadn’t happened. We talked for a while about this and that, how Grandpa and Grandma were doing, her job, my job search etc. Then I saw my opening. I started by telling her about my friend, the things she’s going through and how eerily similar they were to our experiences years ago. She was moved, expressed empathy and offered to help.<br /><br /><br />It was then that I told her why I had really called. How I wanted to thank her and apologize to her for not being appreciative enough in the past. “Thank you,” she said, “but you don’t have to do that.” This wasn’t just humility: she was trying to cut me off. And it’s not out of coldness that she wanted to cut me off before I got all weepy, it was out of discomfort. <br /><br />My family, as a rule, does not express positive emotions to each other. Anger? Irritation? Pain? Frustration? No problem! But when it comes to saying something nice we are woefully ill equipped. We say “I love you” through shared derision and sarcasm. I know my family is really unhappy with me when they’re not making fun of me, my hair, my clothes, my diet or my beard. We never, ever hug. Both my twin sister and I are working on introducing hugs into familial gatherings, but it’s still pretty awkward for everyone involved.<span style="color:#ff0000;">**</span><br /><br /><br />By calling my mother to offer sincere, straightforward thanks I had broken a cardinal rule, a fact which she illustrated in a story. “A few months back,” she said, “I did something like this [expressing emotions] and I wrote a letter to my mom and dad just to say . . . y’know. I didn’t need or want them to respond, I just wanted to say some things in writing so they would know. I talked to my dad a few times after I knew he had gotten the letter and he didn’t say anything about it, of course. Then a few days later he said ‘We got your letter. You didn’t need to do that.’ I could tell it made him uncomfortable but I’m sure he appreciated it.”<br /><br />The more I think about it, the more it amazes me just how much that story and her telling of it says about my family. There is such a level of discomfort with positive emotional expressions that she had to use a parable to tell me that. I guess in a weird way I really respect that.<br /><br />And yet, flying in the face of all that, I will here and now proclaim that I love and appreciate my mother. Hopefully she’ll never actually read this, because that’d be really awkward . . . <span style="color:#ff0000;">***<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"><br /></span><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*Menopause, Menopause the Musical!</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"><br />**Because I work in theatre I’ve been thrust into the world of hugging. Initially that was terrifying to me, but now I’ve really come to (pardon the pun) embrace it and have become a big hug advocate. It’s actually one of my favorite things, even with strangers. <br /><br /><br />And for the record, I give good hug. This is largely thanks to two unique physically attributes of mine: A) my incredibly long arms that allow me to wrap Reed Richards-like around even the largest of hugees and 2) my soft, uncooked dinner roll of a torso is crafted for ideal cuddling.<br /><br /><br />***Though less awkward than the conversations that would ensue if she read anything else in my blog.</span><br /></span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-67440041031033403442008-05-17T08:26:00.002-04:002008-05-17T08:29:52.630-04:00Daniel Waving Good-byeI’ve been estranged from my father’s side of the family for almost exactly as long as I’ve been estranged from my father. That’s because in the midst of the turmoil caused by him running off with a chambermaid, evading his taxes and failing to pay our mortgage, his mother (my grandmother) informed us that Dad had prayed for forgiveness—God had forgiven him and so should we. Yes, he closed his eyes and spoke to his imaginary friend and because of that we should over look the money he stole and the fact that he left us homeless. His family couldn’t understand why that was a problem for us.<br /><br />There’s been very little communication with any of them for almost ten years. In that time I’ve moved, gotten married and even changed my name. Since none of them was invited to any of those events, I don’t expect them to be necessarily aware of them (in fact, one of the ideas behind the name change was that it would prevent them from getting in contact with me—that and it would help prevent my father from committing fraud against me like he has with the rest of my family). <br /><br />When I was talking to my mom the other day, she informed me that a letter had come to her house intended for my siblings and me. It was an invitation to an upcoming family reunion. Yes, it’s absurd that these people have so little grasp on reality as to think that my brother, sister and I would be interested in such an event (we never even liked that side of the family when we had to spend time with them). And yes, it is absolutely insulting and infuriating that my mother, who was better to that family than my father ever was, was purposely omitted from the invitation (divorce is a sin) which was mailed to <em>her</em> house. That alone would be reason enough for me to boycott the reunion if a myriad of other reasons didn’t already exist.<br /><br />The most remarkable thing about this invitation, however, trumps those other things. The invitation was addressed to: “E.J., Jane and <strong><em>Daniel</em></strong>” (emphasis mine).<br /><br />Yes, I’ve changed my name. My <em>last</em> name. I am not now, nor have I ever been a ‘Daniel.’ If you’re sending out invitations to your family and you can’t quite remember someone’s name apparently the thing to do is just guess. Don’t look it up or anything. Don’t call Aunt Alice and say, “What’s the name of Jim and Sandy’s quiet, pudgy son? I know his twin sister is Jane, but what’s his name? . . . Daniel? Are you sure? . . . Well, if you’re not sure I’ll call a few other people to verify so that I don’t end up looking like a complete mutherfucking idiot when I send out the invitation.”<br /><br />Am I just that forgettable? I’ve been called a lot of things, but I’m not sure that “wallflower” is a label that would stick. Or quiet. Or hell, anything short of loud, obnoxious and intrusive.<br />It’s funny, too, because the only other place where people constantly struggled with remembering my name was the church where I grew up. <br /><br />After every service, we’d file out and shake hands with the people assigned to door duty. Invariably, it would go like this: “Good to see you, Julie. That’s a very pretty dress, Jane. How are you Sandy? Jim. Hello . . . uh, Champ. Hey, EJ, how’s school?” Substitute “Sport,” “young man,” or “Tom?” for “Champ” and you have an accurate idea of my exit from church every week for the first 13 years of my life<span style="color:#ff0000;">*<span style="color:#000000;">.</span></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /></span>I’m now thinking that the only reason I’m estranged from the family and the church is because neither group could remember my name. My ego, my sick need to be in the spotlight wouldn’t allow me to bother with those who refused to acknowledge my stardom.<br /><br /></span>Then again, maybe my abandonment of them had something to do with the fact that my dad’s family is a group of cattle ranching bigots and the church is a group of bigoted cattle.<br /><br />Hard to say, really.<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*After that point it stayed pretty much the same for the next seven years, but every few years we lost someone from the line-up. You’d think the novelty of that alone would help make me memorable, but alas, no. </span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-267965385120157252008-05-09T21:04:00.003-04:002008-05-09T21:08:43.857-04:00Fletch's Rules to Live ByI am no role model nor would I like to be considered one. But, there are a few habits and practices of mine that should, nonetheless, be adopted universally. I've compiled a list of a few of these universal maxims. <br /><br />I am not the only one who does these things, but I am the one who is about to list them for you so the history books will one day give me the credit. I beat you to it, so there.<br /><br /><strong>1. Pay at the Pump<br /></strong><br />Welcome to the 21st century, ladies and gentlemen! We have a lot of amazing things here in the 21st century, not the least of which are credit cards and gas pumps that take them. Truly, inserting one's plastic into the slot of a pump and quickly withdrawing it is nothing short of capitalist intercourse. There is no reason why one should ever have to leave one's car sitting at the pump while one goes inside to pay. There are, in fact, only two reasons why anyone should ever enter a gas station: a. to use the restroom during a long car trip and 2. to purchase cheap candy to smuggle into the movie theatre. And when doing either of those things, one should pull into a parking spot at the gas station, not leave one's car sitting at the pump.<br /><br /><strong>2. Reusable Bags</strong><br /><br />Yes, it's ecologically responsible and blah blah blah but really the best reason to do it is because nothing quite beats the feeling of superiority you get when you go through the checkout with reusable bags. Regardless of what you are purchasing, people will actually look up to you for using reusable bags. Even if you're purchasing nothing but a tray of sushi and two silk ties (true story) they will think you are a good human being. I'm fairly certain that you could purchase a stack of porno mags, a case of batteries and a box of Toaster Strudel while using cloth bags and the cashier would still say "How responsible of you!" And, of course, you get to look down on everyone who isn't using them<span style="color:#ff0000;">*</span>! It's awesome. You may be inferior to them in every other way (as I usually am) but when it comes to the grocery checkout lane: You are officially their better if you are using reusable bags. <br /><br /><strong>3. Donate<br /></strong><br />I don't care what it is: money, time, blood, other bodily fluids . . . Whatever. Just give something you don't have to<span style="color:#ff0000;">**</span> to someone you don't know. <br /><br /><strong>4. Listen to Radio Lab</strong><br /><br />This isn't a matter of opinion here, people. I'm not just trying to tell you that this is a good show. It can actually be objectively proven to be the best show ever created. I mean, I really like <a href="http://www.thislife.org/">This American Life </a>but that's an opinion. It is a scientifically verifiable that everyone in the universe should be listening to <a href="http://www.wnyc.org/shows/radiolab/">Radio Lab</a>. <br /><strong><br />5. Do Not Turn In To The Center Lane</strong><br /><br />Turning in to the center lane does not solve any of your problems, it just delays them. Having a hard time turning onto the street? That sucks. But you know what sucks even more? Trying to merge into busy traffic from a dead stop with the potential of someone going the other direction coming into your lane at any moment. Just don’t do it. <br /><br /><strong>6. Take a Course in Logic</strong><br /><br />Why is Gym Class required but Logic optional? And sure, PE has its merits but I truly believe that if everyone took a course in Logic the world would be a much better place. Think of how much better equipped people would be to deal with difficult problems if they had a background in Logic. This should be a core class along with Science, English and History. Middle school, high school, college . . . people should even have to take a test in Logic <a href="http://bathtubjeff.blogspot.com/2006/08/archive-how-i-kept-myself-from-getting.html">when applying to work at a video store. <br /></a><strong><br />7. Make an Ass of Yourself</strong><br /><br />I don’t expect everyone to take to it quite as well as I have, but I do think that everyone should do this at least once a day. It doesn’t have to be a large scale “Mission Accomplished” kind of self-ass-makery, it could be something as small as using the phrase “self-ass-makery” in a blog. At any rate, the world would be a better place if everyone made an ass of themselves from time to time. <br /><br /><br />So there you go. These are seven rules that I live by and, though I would not recommend living as I do under any other circumstances, if everyone were more like me in the above ways the world would be a better place.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*I realize that if this were universally adopted the feeling of superiority would be moot. That is why it is ever so important that you start this practice as soon as possible, that way the early adopters will always be able to rub that fact in the noses of all the Johnny Come-Latelys. And for the record, I beat you to it, so there.<br /><br />**Giving to a church, while technically a donation, doesn't really apply for this particular rule since the threat of damnation for not giving is an act of coercion and therefore it's not really giving something you don't have to. <br /> </span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-59162235418811502662008-04-22T19:30:00.004-04:002008-04-22T21:26:43.266-04:00Off Season RantIt’s been a long time since I blogged. Sorry.<br /><br />I recently found something I had written down in a notebook a while ago . . . and by a while, I mean either last December or a year before that. I’m not really sure. Anyway, I’m sure at the time I intended to do something more with it, but in rereading it I was pretty happy with it, so I’m going to leave it how it is. Enjoy.<br /><br /><span style="color:#000099;">I was sitting in the lobby of the theater, which is the primary job of a House Manager if all is right the world, when I heard someone trying to get in the lobby doors. This is not untypical, even at a quarter after eight for a show with a 7:30 curtain. What can I say? People are rude and don’t understand how disruptive it is for live theater when someone walks in 45 minutes late. I got up to see who it was tugging on my lobby door, shaking my head with disgust at the rude bastard, whomever it might be and screwing on my “I’m disappointed with you as a human being” face. Through the glass doors I saw an enormous man, easily my height , maybe even taller, in a Santa suit.<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">“WTF?” I thought to myself.<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">Behind him stood a middle-aged woman in glasses and frumpy attire. Not frumpy Mrs. Claus attire, just regular frumpy. Not unlike what many of the women who volunteer as ushers at the theater wear.<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">When the behemoth Santa saw me, he waved one gloved hand while the other clutched a fist full of candy canes. Suffice it to say, I was suspicious.<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">I pushed the door open the same way I always do when some kind of degenerate is trying to get into the theater and I want to act polite but not inviting. I said, “Can I help you?” And though he could have just as easily crushed me with his massive frame, he thrust a candy cane at me and said “Merry Christmas!”<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">The way he said it suggested to me that either he thought I thought he was really Santa or he thought he was. Not wanting to burst his bubble and have to deal with an enraged 7ft. tall schizophrenic in a fake beard, I said “What, uh, what’s going on, uhm, Santa?”<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">He immediately dropped his guise and said “I had a thing at the Kid’s Museum [next door], just stopped by on my way to the car.”<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">“Ah. Alright. Well, thanks for the candy cane.”<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">“No problem,” he said waving good-bye, “Happy Holidays!”<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000099;">Now, ‘Happy Holidays’ is my preferred winter salutation. I’m a card carrying member of the ACLU, I don’t think it’s overly PC to be respectful of the fact that other people don’t necessarily celebrate the same holidays—I think it’s just the right level of PC. But Santa saying it? Santa?! How weird is that? It’d be like Zombie Jesus saying “Happy Pagan Fertility Celebration” on Easter Sunday. But, y’know, like a 7ft. tall Zombie Jesus with a frumpy mute female sidekick</span><span style="color:#ff0000;">*</span><span style="color:#000099;">. </span><br /><br /><span style="color:#000099;">The whole thing left me feeling incredibly unsettled, but hey, free candy cane, so who am I to complain?</span><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*It’s been a while since I read the Biblical accounts of the resurrection—does Jesus have a frumpy mute female sidekick?**</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"><br />**Actually, given the great disparity between the various “gospel” accounts, it’s entirely possible that in Mark Jesus had a frumpy mute female sidekick and in Luke he had a fast-talking midget in leather pants as a sidekick and in John Jesus actually is a fast-talking midget in leather pants.<br />Seriously people, those of you who actually believe the Bible is true need to read the various resurrection stories and, with a straight face, explain to me how it could be possible that all four of them is true. Really, I dare you.</span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-59244600207515870852008-01-26T21:17:00.000-05:002008-01-26T21:18:27.512-05:00An Open Letter to the Asshat Who Stole the TapeAsshat Who Stole the Tape:<br /><br />What's the deal, man? That tape may not have looked like much to you, but it was an important part of the workings of this box office and you just freakin' took it! WTF? Do you know how long it took us to find the right thing to prop the door open just enough to make for easy entrance without suggesting to people that it's okay for them to come in? I mean, we tried door stops but those never work. They're more trouble than they're worth. But that roll of electrical tape fit perfectly in front of the door jam and kept the jar open just the right amount. It didn't slip out like a shitty little door stop-- it did it's job. For months the Little Roll of Tape That Could helped to improve the lives of all of us who come and go from the box office. But tonight, while I was selling concessions to your classmates and classmates parents and maybe even your own grandmother, you stole the freakin' tape! C'mon, man, that's just wrong. This petty act of theft makes me irrationally angry! At this point, even if you brought the tape back, I'd probably still call the cops on you. I'm actually considering calling Campus Safety and asking them to search everyone as they leave the theatre. Even if you didn't know the full significance of the tape, you sure as hell knew it wasn't yours. It's not like you saw it there on the floor in front of the door and thought: "Oh, man, that must be where I dropped my roll of electrical tape! After all these years, we are reunited!" No, you freaking saw it on the floor and thought to yourself: "I'm gonna be a huge douche bag and steal a roll of tape that I know doesn't belong to me just so I can upset the good people in the box office who were nice enough to sell me a ticket even though I paid in quarters*! BWAH-Hah-hahahahahaha! Mine is an evil laugh!!" <br /><br />You bastard. Seriously. What are you going to do with that tape? Tape something? Make a shiny black wallet for your emo girlfriend? <br /><br />Y'know what? I don't really care because whatever you're doing with it, it's not as important as the job it was doing here. Even if you're doing something awesome with it like repairing a space shuttle or curing cancer, it still doesn't justify what you did. There's other tape out there, man, but we need this one. You sonovabitch. <br /><br />And the part that really burns me (other than the fact that we have to find something else to prop the door open and until we do I'll have to keep getting out my key every time I want to open the door) is that before this happened I was in the middle of writing another blog. I haven't blogged in like a month and you came and pissed me off so much that I couldn't even finish the one I had started. I don't want to waste my precious blogging time on haranguing you but you know what? Now I have to. Fuck you. Asshat.<br /><br />You have brought shame upon the Catholic Secondary Schools of Grand Rapids because of this foul deed. I don't think I can trust any Catholics anymore, thanks to you. Don't you have a god or something that's supposed to stop you from doing douche-y things like this? I mean, isn't The Virgin Mary looking down on you with shame in her immaculately conceived heart? And you know what else? That tape you stole equals one more thorn that pushed it's way into Jesus' soft flesh and sent hot sacrificial blood into his holy eyes, stinging them badly as he hung on the cross lo those many years ago. If you listen real hard, I bet you can hear him crying because of it. I'm not going to judge, because it's not like the Jesus and I are all that tight, but I think we can all agree that the safe bet is that he'll damn you for all eternity for taking that tape. At least he would if there were any justice. Which, apparently, there isn't because if there were justice the tape would still be holding the door open rather than being put to whatever nefarious task you're planning on using it for! I hope you enjoy your tape more than you would have enjoyed eternal bliss. Fucker.<br /><br />Goddamn it. This totally ruined my night. And I know by saying that, I've made the deed all the sweeter for you, but I can't help it. It's gonna take a while for me to get over this, if I ever do. Man, you're just such an asshat! You probably brought candy into the theatre, too and you're gonna drop your Junior Mints on the carpet and then step on them. Bastard. <br /><br />I hate you more than I've ever hated anyone.<br /><br />Sincerely,<br /><br />~Dave<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />*I have no reason to believe that the thief and the person with quarters are one and the same-- except, of course, the obvious fact that both acts could only be perpetrated by a complete douche.Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-81514778692995052302007-12-24T14:27:00.000-05:002007-12-24T14:29:27.295-05:002007's Christmastime RantThe new issue of <em>Wired</em> magazine has an article explaining, using real science, how Santa Claus operates in our modern world. Part of it involves elves working for the NSA to find out who is naughty and nice. Apparently, the Patriot Act has helped out Santa’s endeavors a great deal. At least it’s good for something, right? And then there’s the part about scads of elves delivering the presents-- should they be caught by a child, they inject them with something that makes them forget, puts them to sleep and makes them dream of sugar-plum faeries. Which, strictly speaking, <em>Wired</em> people, is not really real science. <br /><br />And while I kind of enjoy the image of presents being delivered by a covert, semi-corrupt government agency made up of tiny people in pointy shoes, this is the kind of crap that comes out every December and just drives me up the wall. I mean, is this necessary? Do we need to justify, under the guise of science, a fairy tale that we teach children in order to make sure they behave? How ridiculous can you get?! <br /><br />Also, why is it that every time they do a story on the news that states the oh-so controversial opinion that Santa Claus may not be real, they have to issue a disclaimer to give parents an opportunity to shuffle the kiddies away for a few minutes. Freakin’ NPR does this! Which is patently absurd, because the only way a child young enough to believe in Santa Claus is ever going to pay attention to what’s on NPR is when you tell them not to listen. The rest of the time NPR just hums in the background as the dulcet toned white noise of the adult world. <br /><br />Frankly, I think it’s irresponsible for major news outlets to, with a wink and a smile, play along with this myth every year from November to January first. They can’t talk about mall Santas, instead they need to talk about Santa’s helpers at the mall. Rather than talking about the real, tragic and terrifying consequences of global warming they jokingly give us images of Santa in a bathing suit and suggest that he might have to relocate soon because the polar ice caps are melting at a rapidly increasing rate. Of course, they neglect to mention that by the time Santa has to move, everyone and everything living on earth is done for, thus making a naughty/nice list moot. And while I feel for Santa in that moving an operation so large must be a difficult task, at least he won’t have to worry about setting up a functional toy shop because all the kids, good, bad, poor and rich will be dead! But thanks, Today Show for making jokes about Santa Claus in a speed-o rather than explaining the real and dire consequences of Global Climate Change. Really, I much prefer that children get a little giggle out of their morning news than begin to get some idea about how terribly the last few generations have hosed them—let’s wait until they’re old enough to not be able to do anything about it before we explain to them how their children will never get to make a snowman. Keep ‘em in the dark for as long as you can, that’s what I always say!<br /><br />Which reminds me: Hanukkah. The festival of light. Eight freakin’ days for this holiday. Christmas is, what, one and a half? Hanukkah is eight days, but do any of the Gentiles out there know when Hanukkah even is? “It’s right around Christmas, right?” Right—but only if you count the entire month of December as being “right around Christmas.” Hanukkah has been over for two weeks! And yet, every time someone finds out you’re Jewish, I bet they still say: “Happy Hanukkah!” That’s like a Canadian saying to an American “Happy Independence Day!” on July 20! Get with the times, people. And, just for the record, “Happy Hanukkah” is not equivalent to “Merry Christmas.” Christmas is the big holiday of the Christian year, Hanukkah is, well, not so much for the Jews. So quit acting like it’s a fair trade, because it is not. You ignore the rest of their sacred holidays all year, and only acknowledge Hanukkah because you think its like “little Jewish Christmas” so when you say “Happy Hanukkah” they’ll give you the reciprocal pleasure you so desire and wish you a merry Christmas. Well nuts to that.<br /><br />Why is it that every year around this time we start hearing complaints about greetings? “The ACLU won’t let us say ‘Merry Christmas!’” Bullshit. The ACLU is kind of all about letting everyone say anything they want—so long as it doesn’t infringe on the rights of others to do the same. What I don’t get is: what’s the problem with “Happy Holidays”? Pretty much everyone is celebrating at least two Holidays between the end of November and the beginning of January. There’s always Thanksgiving and New Years, if nothing else. Of course, if you’re not American and/or you are Chinese, you don’t really even have those two holidays—but as we showed in the 1940’s Americans aren’t too bothered by ignoring the rights of Asian peoples when it benefits the greater good. But then, that’s just one of the many ways we’re assholes. <br /><br />So “Happy Holidays” is about as close to inoffensive to about as many people as you can possibly get. Some non-religious people even get irritated by “holidays” because it technically means “holy days” and, of course, there’s no such thing as a “holy day,” but frankly, those people are curmudgeons and need to buck up. Most non-religious people accept “Happy Holidays,” “Merry Christmas,” or even “Happy Hanukkah” for whatever ends it was intended. If it’s said as an attack, as it seems “Merry Christmas” increasingly is, then they’ll be offended, but if it’s meant nicely, it will be taken as such. It’s like when someone says “Bless you” after a sneeze. The worst is when I say “Happy Holidays” and someone corrects me with “Merry Christmas.” No, damnit, I said what I meant, now have some happy freakin’ holidays, okay?! <br /><br />But, and I can’t stress this enough, why can’t we just say “Have a nice day?” Because, above and beyond anything else, each “holiday” is a day. And whether it’s a “holi” or not, I’m a big advocate of everyone spending each of their days happily. I feel like it’s silly to change the way we greet each other because some day we see as especially important is coming up. That’s like correcting strangers on your birthday when they say “Hi.” ‘Oh, no, sir, ‘tis my special day today and so I ask that you greet me appropriately with a ‘Happy Birthday.’ Now, try again.” And maybe there are people who do that, but I think we can all agree, that if there are people out there who behave like that, they are most assuredly douche bags. <br /><br />The most heinous offense perpetrated around this time of year, though, are the people who want to “Take back Christmas” or “Put Christ back in Christmas” or “save Christmas.” What a bunch of hooey this is. You can’t take back something that wasn’t yours to begin with. This holiday has been celebrated for centuries, long before Christians co-opted it. And sure, it went by other names before, but all of the trappings of Christmas are pagan. Christmas tree? German tradition. They’d put candles on the tree because it was the darkest time of year and celebrate the return of the sun (that’s with a “u” not an “o”) using an evergreen, which was a symbol of how, even in darkest night, nature lives on. Yule log, stars, wreaths and gifts? All pagan. Even the virgin birth pre-dates Christianity. Ever heard of Mithras? Okay, maybe not, but the early Christians had. If anyone is going to take back the holiday, it should be the pagans. We should be celebrating Saturnalia or the earth’s axial tilt if we’re going back to the true reason for the season. But you know what? No one is going to do that. Sure, some of us staunch supporters of the separation of church and state might object to an unconstitutional establishment of religion, but we’ll also defend the free practice of your religion. Do some Pagans and tongue-in-cheek Atheists celebrate Solstice? Sure. And you know what? We can do it without taking away your Christmas. <br /><br />There’s room enough this season for any freakin’ holiday you want to celebrate. Christmas does not need saving. The Constitution needs saving, sure, but Christmas is doing just fine. So, enjoy whatever you want to celebrate this time of year, I hope it’s wonderful. And let the rest of us celebrate whatever the hell we want to celebrate too! <br /><br />Have a nice day.Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-3017169319312028362007-12-18T14:23:00.000-05:002007-12-18T14:30:46.406-05:00Why I should never answer the phoneJust moments ago, an older gentleman called the box office. This is an almost exact transcript of our conversation:<br /><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Circle Theatre Box Office, this is Dave.<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Hi, is this the Circle theatre?Me: Yes.Caller: Okay. Do you get matching funds from AT&T?<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Excuse me?</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: If I make a donation to you do you qualify for matching funds from AT&T? You’re a non-profit, right?</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Yes, we area non-profit. I’m not familiar with the AT&T matching funds set up and the person who could answer your question is not in the office right now. I can transfer you to her voice mail so you can leave her a message and she’ll call you back.</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: What’s her number so I can call her later?</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me: It’s 632--<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Hold on, let me get something to write it down on.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="color:#3333ff;">[pause while he gets paper and I ponder why he would have asked for a number without having a way to write it down]</span><br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Alright. What’s the number?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: 632-2997<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller <span style="color:#3333ff;">[matter of factly]</span>: 632-8557.</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me<span style="color:#3333ff;"> [gently correcting him]</span>: No, 632-2997.</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: 5589?</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me <span style="color:#3333ff;">[clued in to the fact that this man is hard of hearing]</span>: No, 2. And then 9, as in the number after 8.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: 45--?</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No, no. 632 . . .<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: 632-5?<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No. 632. Then another 2.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: 632-2<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Yes. Nine. Nine<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: 632-855?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No, 632-2 Nine, as in 1,2,3,4,5,6,7,8,9<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: 1,2,3,4,5?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No. Nine. En. Eye. En. Ee. Nine.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Eff Eye Vee Ee? 8758?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No it’s—Let me put you on hold for a second, I’ll see if I can get better reception.<br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="color:#3333ff;">[places call on hold, makes gesture of frustration to non-existent gods. Takes off headset, picks up handset.]<br /><br /></span></span><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Can you hear me any better now?Caller: Hold on one second.<br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="color:#3333ff;">[pause]<br /><br /></span></span><span style="color:#000000;"><span style="color:#3333ff;"></span></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Alright.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Can you hear me any better now?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: So it’s 632-8597?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No, no it’s 632<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: 632? We can agree on that?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Yes. And then another two.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Four?</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No, six three two two <span style="color:#3333ff;">[taking deliberate care to pronounce both twos exactly the same.]<br /></span><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: 632-2<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Yes! And then the number nine.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Five?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No, nine. The number after eight?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Eight?</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No, nine.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Oh, nine!<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Yes! And then another nine.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Five?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No, another nine. Just like the number I just gave you. Between 8 and 10.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Nine. Is that right?</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me <span style="color:#3333ff;">[almost too excited to speak]</span>: Yes! And then seven.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Seven. Okay, good. And who will I be talking to there?<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Her name is Joni.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller <span style="color:#3333ff;">[as if it were an entirely reasonable name]</span>: Gorby? Like ‘Gee Oh Are Bee Why?’<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Me: No, Joni. Jay Oh En Eye.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: ‘Cause I’m wondering if you qualify for the AT&T matching donation thing and I think you do, but you’ve got some kind of number that I’ll need—</span><br /><span style="color:#000000;"></span><br /><span style="color:#000000;">Me: Joni will be able to give that to you.<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#000000;"></span><span style="color:#000000;">Caller: Well real good. Thanks.<br /> </span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-3274494126095345832007-11-27T17:03:00.000-05:002007-11-27T17:04:54.805-05:00Heathens Take Manhattan: Part V: PrologueI was up most of Monday night. Lots of yelling, mostly crying. A love triangle I had found myself in had reached its inevitable conclusion with me on the outside and the other two points forming a love line. They were my only two close friends and I made the mistake of falling for one of them. Ryan, Cindy and I were close. They helped me through one of the darkest, self-pity soaked periods of my life. And because I wasn't used to having a girl who liked me, even as a friend, I fell for Cindy. I thought I was in love. And, of course, she fell for the more attractive and confident of the two of us-- which was not me.<br /><br />It shouldn't have, but somehow it did come as a surprise to me when I found out that they had become more than friends. It destroyed me. My world crumbled. In one fell swoop I had lost the only two people I trusted, the two people who meant the most to me. In my mind, my world had been as devastated as my mom's was when her husband of twenty-five years left her for a chamber maid in Pittsburgh. Oh, to be 19 again . . .<br /><br />I got up after a long, sleepless night and poured a bowl of Cap'n Crunch. I still remember how it scrapped its way down my raw throat. I waited until it was late enough in the morning to call Cindy. As I dialed I turned on the TV in my bedroom. I listened to her phone ring while on the screen smoke was issuing forth from one of the twin towers of the World Trade Center. No one knew what had happened, certainly no one knew why or had any concept of how our lives, all our lives, were about to change.<br /><br />Cindy answered the phone; she said "A plane just flew into the World Trade Center." "I know," I said, "I just saw that." It was right then that a second plane hit. "That's crazy," I said, shaking my head. And then I turned off the TV. I didn't want it to distract me from the important issue I was dealing with.<br /><br />Six years later, I don't remember a damn word of that conversation-- the conversation I forced her to have while the world was changing around us. It's no wonder that she still hates me. I do too. I'm not filled with the self-loathing bull shit I spent ages 6 through 21 stuffing myself with, but I am deeply ashamed about how I behaved that day. I’m reminded of a girl I used to work with who, when a friend of hers was found dead, exclaimed: "Another one of my friends is dead . . . why does God keep doing this to me?!" Part of it can be chalked up to the self-centeredness of youth, but it's no excuse. I was too concerned with my own life to care about the lives of thousands of others.<br /><br />After I got off the phone with Cindy, I turned the TV back on. It was only then that some of the import of this day started to break through my thick shell of self-importance. I watched as two people, holding hands, did the one thing they could do, and leapt to their deaths. Of all the images from that day, that's the one that sticks with me most clearly. I'm sure there was no audio, but somehow I can still remember the sound of the impact.<br /><br />I watched all through the afternoon. I watched the towers collapse, I watched as ash and debris chased hundreds of human beings down the street. I remember the replays, the five seconds of video that they began replaying around 10am and didn't stop for another two weeks.<br /><br />A lot has changed since that Tuesday morning. We all know how the world changed, the thousands of lives lost, heroes made and killed in the same day, the fear and paranoia that gripped our country, the president who used it to drive us into a war and the unquestioning public who let him. At the risk of sounding like that self-centered nineteen year old, I've been through a great deal of personal change since then too, which understandably has received far less press coverage than the rest of the world.<br /><br />Initially, I supported the president, goose-stepped my way down the street with an American flag on my arm. I had a "God Bless America" sticker in the window of my car and scoffed when a friend of mine said that "the things Bush is doing now will bring about the Apocalypse."<br /><br />Gradually, though, along with the rest of the country, I started to come to my senses. By the time Colin Powell was on TV showing grainy photographs and claiming that this was proof of WMDs in Iraq, my reasoning had returned. One of the worst fights I've ever had with my mother was about the impending war. She asked what I would do if I were drafted, I told her there was no way I was going to be forced to go kill people just because that idiot wanted to go to war. She told me that I needed to respect the president, and if I were drafted, it'd be my duty to God and Country to serve.<br /><br />It was around this time that my faith in both God and Country waned. I had been struggling with my religious indoctrination for a while—this was my "I just don't like organized religion" phase—but the events of 9-11 and everything that followed, told me that I couldn't just be a conscientious objector, I needed to decide what I really believed. And I found that I really just didn't believe and thus began my angry atheist phase.<br /><br />To this day, I still love my country, but I loathe sentiments like "I love my country." Nationalism has been mistaken for patriotism—so much so that I can't even stomach the term "Patriot" anymore. I'm a Thomas Paine Patriot, not a George Bush Imperial Nationalist.<br /><br />In the wake of 9-11, many Americans (who clearly missed the point) became more religious, more xenophobic. I, and an impressive amount of others, went the other direction. Step by step by step. Which eventually lead me to New York City.<br /><br /><br />The CFI conference was held in World Trade Center building #7. Up on the 40th floor, the first night of the conference, I looked down and saw what I assumed to be a construction site. And, of course, it is a construction site, but there’s much more to it than that.<br /><br />The next morning, along with a group of future leaders of the secular movement, I visited Ground Zero. There's not a whole lot to see, but then I think that might be the point. Some of what is there is vitriolic rhetoric that turned my stomach. Maybe I'm wrong, but I feel like referring to those killed on 9-11 as "The Heroes of September 11, 2001" is disingenuous (which is not to say that many of them were not heroic). I guess "victims" just made it sound too much like we were victimized and we can't have that . . . it would make us feel vulnerable.<br /><br />Up close, Ground Zero looks pretty much like any other snail's pace construction site. But it's not. Standing there, the tendency is to look down at what is there-- I forced myself to look up and see what wasn't there. The footage from that day ran through my head. I saw those people holding hands, I saw the smoke, heard the cries. Standing there, at the site of the defining tragedy of my generation (and possibly even our nation's history) I felt a profound guilt. <br /><br />I've spent the last six years feeling guilty for how I acted on that day, but being there the guilt slammed into me like never before. I wanted to tell how sorry I was, but I knew there was no one to tell. The people I needed to apologize to weren’t there. So I let myself experience that guilt-- let myself wallow in it until it was all I could do to keep myself from screaming. It wasn't just the guilt of six years, it was the guilt of a wasted life, of wasting life itself when so many people had it taken away from them. The guilt consumed me, it overpowered me and I let it. I encouraged it. And then, I stopped. <br /><br />While I will carry the shame of how I behaved on September 11th for the rest of my life, I needn’t be ashamed of what I’ve done since then, what I’ve become and what I’ll do in the future. <br /><br />A lot of the way I've acted since that day has a lot to do with the way I acted on that day. Not to sound too Catholic or anything, but my guilt informs a great deal of my motives. On that day, all I cared about was myself. Now, my perspective is more global. And while I've been a loud mouth for the better part of two decades, it's only been in the last five years that I’ve been an activist. A lot of that, too, has to do with losing a belief in the hereafter,—when you believe only in the here, there is all the more motive to make the most of it and make a difference while you can.<br /><br />Looking out at the buildings that should have been there, I made a vow to myself. I suppose if I were religious it would have been a prayer. But I told myself: “This is it. This is your chance. From here on out you can’t just fuck around. You’ve been here, you’ve had your little nadir point, now it’s time to do something. Existential crises are all well and good, but now it’s time to do something about it.”<br /><br />I’m not going to pretend like it was some kind of epiphany—this wasn’t the fulcrum around which my life pivots. I wouldn’t have been there in the first place if I needed an epiphany to show me the way. Instead, I see it as a moment of rededication, like every time I tell my wife I love her. It showed me that this is important, that this life is important and that the causes I believe in are worth fighting for. It is hard and I’m often not very good at it, but I need to keep trying and I’m going to keep trying to do what’s right, to make my mark, and to help.Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-18638413815778038552007-11-27T14:09:00.001-05:002007-11-27T14:12:43.431-05:00Heathens Take Manhattan: Part IV: My GenerationOne of the best parts of my weekend in New York, and something I've just barely touched on so far, was getting to meet, and hang out with some of my fellow student activists from around the globe<span style="color:#ff0000;">*</span>. CFI flew a whole slew of us out and, sadly, I didn't get to spend a lot of time with everyone, but the ones I did get to know were awesome-- way more awesome, in fact, than those of you who aren’t them. Sorry, but it had to be said.<br /><br />When I flew in on Thursday, Sarah was the only other out-of-towner around, so I gave her a call and she very easily directed me from airport to bus to subway to hostel. This girl had been in town all of two hours longer than me and she was walking around like a pro. All weekend, she was the one person who always knew how to get from point A to point B . . . I'm pretty sure that's her mutant power. <br /><br />Sarah, being both a good traveler and a vegan, came equipped with a list of vegan friendly restaurants that we'd be near. Without her, it's entirely possible that I would have starved on the streets of New York. Actually, I take that back, without her, I would have never found my way to the streets of New York and would have starved sitting in LaGuardia, mulling over a map and trying to figure out just what the hell a "borough" is.<br /><br />And then there was Alon. Alon met up with Sarah and me to see <em>The Drowsy Chaperone</em> (which he hated and Sarah and I enjoyed). Alon lives in New York, though he's originally from Micronesia. I'm not sure there's much I can say about Alon that isn't already destined to be in the history books . . . Let me just throw this little fact at you: The guy is 17 years old and a grad student in mathematics<span style="color:#ff0000;">**</span> at Columbia. He's a living encyclopedia. Just don't ask him to figure out how much you're supposed to tip . . . because he will-- to the eighth decimal point.<br /><br />Roy, from UCLA, is also a little tyke with a big brain. Roy is awesome-- even though he's also a math dork. He and Nidia (also awesome, also a math dork, only she has pink hair which Roy does not) both showed up at the hostel just as Sarah and I were heading out for breakfast Friday morning so the four of us ended up doing the city together. In Central Park we found a long division problem that someone had written in the dirt. All three of my companions stopped and marveled as if it were a hieroglyph found on the side of a mountain. I think they were actually more impressed with the dirt long division than they were with most of the things we saw at the MOMA. Math dorks are funny that way.<br /><br />Somewhere along the way we picked up Ben (the George Harrison of math dorks) and Shalini (who is half my age and twice my IQ) and I found myself in the unenviable position of being the sole English major in a pack of math dorks. <br /><br />We all made our way to the Natural History Museum where, after much struggle, we finally caught up with Alon again. Let me tell you, if you're going to go to the Natural History Museum, the way to do it is with a bunch of Freethinking math dorks. Freethinking math dorks with cameras, to be precise.<br /><br />Now, rarely am I the smartest person in the room but I'm also not often the dumbest guy in the room. Hanging out with Sarah, Roy, Nidia, Ben, Shalini and Alon, I was, without question, the dumbest guy in the room. That experience was not to be alleviated all weekend until the flight back to Grand Rapids<span style="color:#ff0000;">***</span>. <br /><br />At the conference I met a stunning number of new awesome people: the awesome Canadian foursome, Mara (another theatre kid!), Kristine (my fellow Overflow Room Bouncer), Chris (the revolutionary), Lucia (the Dawkins dork), Sean and Brett (our own little Okies), Byung (good ol' B), Roger (all the way from Edinburgh), Blake (who is just about the nicest guy you'd ever want to meet), and Tommy and Alex and Vikkey and Lisa and literally dozens of my brilliant (for Chris' sake, I won't say "bright"), and enthusiastic peers. <br /><br />When you look at the Freethought movement, whether it’s CFI Michigan or any other group, it doesn't take a math dork to see that the average age is, well, closer to Paul Kurtz than it is to Alon and Shalini. Being at this conference and seeing so many young people who are dedicated to the cause and chomping at the bit to take on the world, made my little heretic heart pump with joy<span style="color:#ff0000;">****</span>. <br /><br />This is a group of young people who absolutely defy the stereotype of the lazy, apathetic, self-absorbed idiots that our generation is so often clapped with. For the first time, at this conference, I felt really . . . hopeful, I guess, for the younger generation. When you compare the voter turn out for 18-25 year olds in the last election with the same age group thirty years ago, it’s fairly devastating. But that weekend in New York showed me that some of us haven’t given up. Most of the students I met were people who had taken the initiative to lead or, in many cases, start organizations at their schools. That’s no small feat. Adding that workload on to the already daunting tasks of school and work is a fairly quixotic endeavor and it’s so encouraging seeing so many Rationalist dreamers take it on. <br /><br />As we parted ways on Sunday afternoon, I felt the same kind of feelings I had experienced years earlier when leaving church camp—only, instead of being filled with the Holy Spirit I was filled with a sense of community and purpose. We hugged all of our new BFF’s good-bye and vowed that we’d keep in touch. And I hope we do. I hope this new community we created over a long weekend in New York does have a lasting impact. I hope that as the new friends I made rise to fame and become the new voices of secular values that they remember me and, most importantly, give me expensive presents that they purchase with the advances from their book deals. <br /><br />I totally promise to do the same when I strike it rich.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /> <br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*Okay, mostly just the U.S. and Canada***** but Roger is from Ireland so, at the very least, there was transcontinental representation.<br /><br />**I'm sure it's not just 'mathematics,’ but every time he started to explain what he studies my brain shut down and the Lollipop Guild song started playing in my head-- that's what happens when people talk math to me.<br /><br />***Even my flight to Chicago was packed with Rhodes Scholars. The flight attendant was writing a dissertation on "Being and Nothingness" as she served drinks.<br /><br />****Well, actually it was just blood. But it was joyous and freshly optimistic blood.<br /></span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*****Which is a Native American term meaning: “Country that is much like America only with Socialism, better health care, gay marriage, and funny accents.”</span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-69945073228652592942007-11-20T14:49:00.000-05:002007-11-21T15:03:54.208-05:00Heathens Take Manhattan: Part III: The ConferenceMark Twain said: "go to Heaven for the climate, Hell for the company."<br /><br />For three days, I was in Hell. And I loved every minute of it.<br /><br />On November 9th through the 11th, 2007, the Center For Inquiry/ New York City presented “The Secular Society and Its Enemies,” a conference which featured a veritable Who’s Who in Hell. For three days many of the world’s most brilliant minds gathered to laugh, drink and discuss the big issues in the new home of the New York Academy of Sciences, on the 40th floor of WTC Building #7.<br /><br />The poetry was lost on no one as we spent the weekend discussing threats to the secular world while just out the window was history’s greatest example of a “faith based initiative.” And yet, there was very little mention of that fact. It wasn’t necessary. Even as we stood around and noshed on mini-quiche, the shadow of those two towers loomed as large as ever. Rather than putting a damper on the conference, though, it had a galvanizing effect. It showed us just how important the cause we are all fighting for is. This isn’t just an intellectual or philosophical exercise: there are real, devastating forces taking on secular society.<br /><br />The first night of the conference featured honors given to Neil deGrasse Tyson (my new hero), Ann Druyan (the sweetest, most brilliant woman I’ve ever met . . . who also happens to have been married to Carl Sagan) and 17-year-old Matthew LaClair.<br /><br />You may have heard about young Matthew who, last year, caught a teacher of his on tape saying in class (among other horrid things) that a student was going to go to Hell because she did not believe in Jesus. Because of Matthew, not only was his teacher exposed, but so was the larger problem in our public schools, where things like that often go unchecked. Matthew was given the James Madison Religious Liberty Award and then gave the kind of speech seventeen year olds, by all rights, should not be able to give. I’m jealous of his poise and eloquence. I’d hate him for it if he weren’t such a damned nice guy.<br /><br />The evening ended with a rousing speech by Eddie Tabash that warned of “the threats of the religious right to our modern freedoms.” I believe someone referred to it as Eddie’s “scare the hell out of you” speech.<br /><br />After the evening’s events were over, I went up to Ann Druyan (the first celebrity I dared approach), and told her I had just heard her on <em>Radio Lab</em><span style="color:#ff0000;">*</span> and how her story of her love for Carl being sent out into the cosmos made me weep like a baby. Truly, it’s that part of science we need to stress—the beauty, the poetry of it<span style="color:#ff0000;">**</span> and the work of Ann and Carl is greatest asset we have to that end. Ann and I talked for a few minutes—she told me how much she admired me for going into teaching, said how that was the most noble thing a person could do . . . That’s a moment in time I’m keeping with me. Ann Druyan told me that what I was doing was important. I could have shat myself.<br /><br />The next morning, my fellow young activists and I were put to work. Kristine and I were set up as ticket checkers at the door to the overflow room. Y’know, just in case anyone wanted to sneak into the overflow room, rather than sitting in the main room. As you can predict, ours was an important job. But, it did mean that I got to see everyone as they came in (the door to the main room was right next to the door to the overflow room). Not only did I manage to piss off Dawkins (he didn’t think it was funny when I asked to see his ticket) but I also stopped a man who’s had a fatwa issued against him from entering (sorry about that, Mr. Warraq) and I had a conversation with Alan Dershowitz about the Ten Commandments without realizing he was Alan Dershowitz.<br /><br />Since we were guests of CFI (in that they paid for us, flew us out and arranged for our hostel stay) the other students and I were relegated to the overflow room. And actually, the view there, courtesy of a big projection screen, was much nicer than that enjoyed by many of the people in the main room. It was funny, too, because we all still applauded for the speakers as though they could really hear us.<br /><br />Saturday morning was a series of panel discussions featuring the likes of Susan Jacoby (writer of <em>Freethinkers</em>, probably the best book on the history of secularism in America ever), Rebecca Goldstein (<em>Betraying Spinoza</em>), the poet and historian Jennifer Michael Hecht (<em>Doubt: A History</em>), Ann Druyan, Neil deGrasse Tyson, Victor Stenger (<em>God: The Failed Hypothesis</em>, a wonderful counter-apologetic work), Richard Dawkins (as seen on <em>South Park</em>), Michelle Goldberg (<em>Kingdom Coming: The Rise of Christian Nationalism</em>), Wendy Kaminer (<em>Sleeping with Extraterrestrials</em> which is the name of a book she wrote, not an activity that made her famous), journalist Damon Linker, and everyone’s favorite trial attorney, Eddie Tabash.<br /><br />The panel discussions were each, in their own way, brilliantly fascinating and fascinatingly brilliant. Hearing very smart people disagree (at times, almost heatedly) but retain the intellectual integrity of the discussion is just awesome.<br /><br />Perhaps my favorite part of Saturday morning was the panel (moderated by my hero D.J. Groethe) featuring Dawkins, deGrasse Tyson, Druyan and Stenger. The panel discussion itself was great and all, but the coolest thing about it was that during it, Paul Kurtz, the father of the modern Humanist movement and the reason all of us were there in the first place, came and sat with the rabble in the overflow room. Two seats down from me was the man who created CFI, the man whose words helped me put a label on what I believed when I had no clue what ‘Humanism’ even was. The fact that he decided that rather than sit in the front row of the main room and listen to the big headliners, he would sit with the students who couldn’t even afford to pay for their own stay in a hostel and watch it on a projection screen, told me everything I need to know about this man.<br /><br />The rest of Saturday was kind of a mixed bag. Christopher Hitchens, unable to attend himself, sent a video interview, which unfortunately, was really hard to hear (at least in the overflow room). Then, there was the obligatory “Give us money” presentation, which, of course was very important, but mostly just frustrating to those of us who have no money. Luckily for CFI, those of us who don’t have money were in the minority at the conference.<br /><br />The evening really picked up, though with a presentation by Peter Singer. More than anything, Singer made me feel really bad about only being a vegetarian. He was like that far away from making me feel guilty about eating vegetables.<br /><br />After that, D.J. Groethe conducted an interview with Richard Dawkins (which was recorded for <em>Point of Inquiry</em>, one of my three favorite podcasts<span style="color:#ff0000;">***</span>). I was kind of disappointed initially—after all, I’ve heard Dawkins interviewed a whole bunch of times, but I’ve never heard him lecture. While I still would have liked to hear him lecture, the interview ended up being the best I’ve ever heard with Dawkins. He was very candid about his role in ‘the movement,’ freely admitting that his approach may not be the best. If only all of his detractors were able to hear him like that, maybe then they’d see that he’s not the arrogant monster they paint him as. Then again, probably not.<br /><br />And for those of you who aren’t jealous of my weekend already, get this: Saturday night, I got to have dinner with Richard Dawkins! Yes, My Dinner with Dawkins will be an event I cherish and gloat about for the rest of my life.<br /><br />Of course, it wasn’t just me and Richie—that’s what he likes to be called<span style="color:#ff0000;">****</span>-- sitting around a table chewing the fat. It was actually a few dozen of us student leaders sitting around with Richie in the backroom of a pub in the financial district, chewing the fat. He wanted to hear about our groups, what we were doing, what challenges we faced etc. He didn’t say a whole lot, except to ask a question or two (can you believe he didn’t know what a bong is?) and offer words of encouragement. Still, having Richard Dawkins’ ear for even a few minutes is a pretty damn cool thing.<br /><br />On Sunday, there was a panel on the next generation of secularism in which a few of my new friends took part. Not to be all generation-centric or anything, but I’m really glad they had that panel discussion because I don’t think we can overstate the importance of this younger generation. We’re the ones who are going to keep this movement alive decades down the road. It was nice to see so many people over the weekend that understood that fact. And exciting to see how brilliant and eager that younger generation is. But there’ll be more on that in Part IV.<br /><br />This conference made for one of the most amazing, intellectual stimulating and exciting weekends of my life. And, I got to be a total fan boy all weekend around people who are just as geeky as me. I mean, this was like going to a Star Trek convention and having Gene Rodenberry buy you a drink as you sit and talk to Nemoy and Shatner. Ann Druyan touched me! Her thoughts are in space (literally) and she freakin’ touched me!<br /><br />Thanks to this weekend, I can die happily. And, if it turns out we’re all wrong and there really is a Hell, at least I can look forward to great company.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*</span><span style="color:#ff0000;">For those of you who aren’t familiar with <em>Radio Lab</em>, let me just tell you: It is the BEST thing on NPR since <em>This American Life</em>. Please, do yourselves a favor and check it out at </span><a href="http://www.radiolab.org/">http://www.radiolab.org/</a><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">**</span><span style="color:#ff0000;">As Dawkins wonderfully describes it, saying that the utilitarian view of science is what is important is like saying that music is good because it exercises the violinist’s right arm.<br /><br />***See the first footnote for the other two of my three favorite podcasts.<br /><br />****No, no he doesn’t. Don’t tell him I said that he did. And if you’re reading this, I’m very sorry Professor Dawkins, sir.</span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-58630296617617636152007-11-19T10:06:00.000-05:002007-11-19T10:09:15.111-05:00Heathens Take Manhattan: Part II: New York, New YorkWhile I enjoyed spending time in New York City, I didn't fall in love with it the way I did with Paris. Part of that might be that I didn't get to see a whole lot of the city. Didn't make it to Magnolia Bakery for a cupcake, didn't see the Statue of Liberty, didn't get to see Spider-Man web-slinging his way through the streets. Part of it, too, might be the fact that I speak the language there, and that always takes away a bit of the charm . . . When I was in Paris, if someone had said, "Hey, you're not allowed back to Michigan, you're going to have to stay here," I would've smiled, ordered a celebratory crème brulee and then made arrangements to have my cat mailed to me. While I liked visiting New York, I wasn't quite ready to move there.<br /><br />Some people fall head-over-heels for NYC. And while I can see why they would, it just didn't happen to me. If I had found one in a shop, I would have bought a t-shirt that said: "I Like But Am Not Sure I'm Ready To Commit To NY." Paris was love at first sight, NYC was someone I'd like to date for a while and see what develops.<br /><br />That being said, there's no other place like NYC.<br /><br />Times Square was awesome. I just love being in a place where people are actually fighting to get theatre tickets. And there are literally dozens of shows to choose from. I happened to see "The Drowsy Chaperone" on the night before Broadway virtually shut down because of the stage hand's strike. There's no way I can describe "The Drowsy Chaperone" without it sounding really lame (including the fact that Bob Saget was headlining) so I won't even try, except to say that I had a blast. And there was a song about a monkey-- which was worth the price of admission alone.<br /><br />I love the restaurants in New York, too. There was a choice of vegetarian restaurants within walking distance of the hostel I was staying in. In Grand Rapids, I have to create my own burrito in order to have something on the menu that I can eat; in New York there were options . . . loads and loads of options. We went to a vegetarian pizza place called 'Cafe Viva' a couple of times. The food there was brilliant. As were the spinach and feta croissants from the little bagel shop across the street which was run by an adorably brusk group of people of indeterminate ethnic background.<br /><br />While we didn't get to spend nearly enough time at either, we did manage to hit the MoMA (which I'm told stands for "Museum of something something") and the Natural History Museum.<br /><br />The MoMA had a special exhibition of George Seurat sketches and paintings. And while they were really cool to see, it did mean that I had "Sunday in the Park with George" stuck in my head for the rest of the day. They also happen to have Andy Warhol's soup cans, Van Gogh's Starry Night and a whole shit load of other stuff you've seen on posters in college dorms and young hipster's apartments. There was one Jackson Pollock painting that I've seen reproduced a number of times, but until I was right up next to it, I had no idea that beneath the paint is a whole mess of thumb tacks, keys, cigarettes and other folderol. So cool. One of the highlights for me, though, has got to be the series of photos that Edward Muybridge took of a horse running. These photos (cool as they are in and of themselves) and the technological advances Muybridge had to make to take them, were a major step on the road to the creation of movies. What can I say? I'm a big dork.<br /><br />Natural History Museum is one place where I definitely need to spend more time next time I'm in NYC. What a treasure trove that place is. I mean, narwhal skeletons hang from the ceiling. Freaking narwhals! And we didn't even get to check out the Hayden Planetarium which almost certainly would have made me squeal with delight.<br /><br />The hostel we stayed in was nice. We were on the fifth floor with no elevator. The beds were uncomfortable, the room was balmy, there was an almost complete lack of functioning electrical outlets and the pillows were about as thick and fluffy as my stomach is tanned and muscled. Having never lived in a dorm or been in the military, I couldn't say how the experience of sharing a room with eleven other co-ed virtual strangers and only one bathroom compares, but I imagine there are more similarities than there are differences. And yet, it wasn't bad. Kind of neat, actually. Now, had I been staying there another few days or had the bed above mine been occupied (yeah extra pillow) my memories of it might not have been quite so pleasant, but I mostly had a good time in the hostel.<br /><br />I feel like I've done 'city' now. Like going to the top of the Eiffel Tower, city-ing is one more thing I can check off my list of things to do before I die.<br /><br />NYC is the paragon of city-ness and now that I've done it, every other city will just be a pale imitation. I love Chicago, but it doesn't have the same level of city-ness. It's a nice try-- still leagues ahead of Grand Rapids-- but it lacks that singular experience of "I'm in the city" that New York has to offer. I'm a little disappointed, actually, I feel like I peaked too early . . . I haven't done Vegas or L.A. or, I don't know, St. Louis or Seattle<span style="color:#ff0000;">*</span>. Not that I expect to be disappointed by those places now, I'm just saying that for whatever else they have to offer, they won't be able to compete in their level of city-ness.<br /><br />New York has got 'city' covered. Try as they might, no one else is ever going to be able to compete.<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*Cities outside North America don't really count-- their city-ness is entirely different. They aren't all aspiring to be New York City, they seem content to just be what they are.<br /></span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-2261701662354282922007-11-02T14:06:00.000-04:002007-11-03T19:06:32.762-04:00Mistaken Identity<strong>"I saw someone who looks <em>just like you</em>!"</strong><br /><br />Apparently, I'm the least original looking person on the planet. About once a week, someone will tell me that they saw someone who looks <em>just like me</em> somewhere (you'd think with that kind of universality I'd be able to get more modeling jobs . . . ).<br /><br />For instance, there was the guy who used to frequent the gay bar who wore a monocle, a cape and carried a walking stick and looked <em>just like me</em> according to several of my friends.<br /><br />Then there was the guy that Catie spotted walking down the street in <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Easttown</span>, who, even though he looked <em>just like me</em> she knew he wasn't me because he did not walk with my <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">elegance</span>. Seriously. That's what she told me. If that particular <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">doppelganger</span> lacks my level of grace it's hard to believe he's even able to stand upright.<br /><br />And there was the high school senior, according to Amy, who looked <em>just like me</em> that was recently crowned Homecoming King. Clearly, much like my own spot on Grand Rapids Christian <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">High's</span> homecoming court lo those many years ago, if this poor bastard does look <em>just like me</em>, his coronation was the end result of a cruel prank perpetrated upon him by a large portion of the all-hating student body<span style="color:#ff0000;">*</span>.<br /><br />Most disturbingly is my double in Ohio whom Rose spotted shushing a child while sitting in a Catholic mass.<br /><br />With my likeness being so horribly abused, do you suppose I could sue for defamation of character?<br /><br /><strong>"You remind me of . . . "</strong><br /><br />Maybe this is something that happens to everyone (I don't know, I've only ever been the one person) but it seems like people are always telling me what celebrities they think I look like.<br /><br />Just this last Wednesday at the bar I was told by one person that I look like <a href="http://www.laist.com/attachments/la_tim/340x.jpg">Will Ferrell </a>and by another that I look like "<a href="http://www.pictureshowman.com/images/articles/Articles_graphics/James_Dean/Dean_3.jpg">James Dean</a> . . . if he were, like, a dad." Huh? Oh, and as a bonus, one guy told me I sound like <a href="http://filmfanatic.org/reviews/wp-content/uploads/2007/01/Cage.JPG">Nicholas Cage</a>.<br /><br />Some other great comparisons that I've heard are <a href="http://cache.viewimages.com/xc/3239694.jpg?v=1&c=ViewImages&k=2&d=9724400E855F926378DAFD36DD163B45A55A1E4F32AD3138">Errol Flynn </a>(because we both had goatees at one time!) and Ryan Reynolds, one of the titular guys from <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">TV's</span> <em><a href="http://www.pazsaz.com/pic/2guys.gif">Two Guys, a Girl and a Pizza Place</a></em>. And while I both appreciate the artistic and cultural significance of <em><a href="http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0137330/">Two Guys, a Girl and a Pizza Place</a></em> and agree that, in fact, Ryan Reynolds is an attractive fella, one must acknowledge that only one suffering from Magoo like <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">myopia</span> could ever compare me to <a href="http://i.imdb.com/Photos/Ss/0384806/M-105.JPG">this</a>.<br /><br />Oh, and have you noticed how none of the people I'm compared to look anything like each other? Apparently, I'm like <a href="http://www.harrywalker.com/photos/Sheen_Martin.jpg">Martin Sheen</a> who looks exactly like <a href="http://www.linternaute.com/television/dossier/06/television-cinema-carriere/americains/3-montage-sheen.jpg">Charlie Sheen</a> and <a href="http://cache.viewimages.com/xc/72989714.jpg?v=1&c=ViewImages&k=2&d=17A4AD9FDB9CF193875DCB1DD8387ABBD8AE926CCFA4D0F0A40A659CEC4C8CB6">Emilio <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Estevez</span></a> even though the <a href="http://www.actsofvolition.com/images/clones.jpg">two of them</a> look nothing alike.<br /><br /><strong>What is your hair?</strong><br /><strong></strong><br />With increasing frequency, people have been referring to me as a redhead lately. Don't get me wrong, I love redheads and I take no offense at being called a redhead except that <strong><em>I DON'T HAVE RED HAIR!</em></strong> I even kind of wish I did, but I don't! So why in hell do people call me a redhead? Even other redheads have included me when referring to "us redheads." Really, I'm flattered but you're bringing down the redhead movement by trying to induct me. I can only hurt the cause.<br /><br />Also in hair related news, an older gentleman at the bar the other night told me that I had gorgeous hair. I know that doesn't really fit with the whole mistaken identity theme I'm working with, but frankly, I was flattered and I wanted to share it with you anyway.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*Of course, there's always the possibility that, in fact, he was voted into the office of king (which, for the first time I'm realizing is exceptionally ironic) because he's a good person and people like him because of his work ethic and sparkling personality. Then again, we are talking about a high school so the cruel prank theory holds more water.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"></span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-68794278996951777342007-10-28T10:01:00.000-04:002007-10-28T10:02:55.537-04:00Big Apple Beware!Because the <a href="http://www.centerforinquiry.net/">Center for Inquiry</a> is completely awesome, they're sending me to New York City for the weekend of November 8th through the 11th to attend a big, huge, <a href="http://www.centerforinquiry.net/secularsociety">ridiculously amazing conference.</a><br /><br />I've never been to New York City before, so I was wondering if those of you who have spent time in NYC could give me some pointers. The conference is in building seven of the World Trade Center and the hostel that they're putting me up in is, I'm told, pretty near there so I guess Lower Manhattan is going to be where I'll be spending most of my time.<br /><br />Any 'can't miss' sites that you can direct me to? I mean, I want to do some of the typical touristy stuff (see the Statue of Liberty, maybe catch a Broadway show, buy a prostitute in a green dress and talk to her all night, go to Time's Square and yell "Yatta!," get mugged etc.) but I'd also like to do some not-so-typical touristy stuff (hit bars where famous people died, visit cool cemeteries, buy used books etc.).<br /><br />Please pass along your advice and suggestions (either email me or post it as a comment), I'd greatly appreciate it. And if you have any friends in NYC who might be interested in showing me the town, feel free to put me in touch with them too.Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-12299670281200735272007-10-14T12:48:00.000-04:002007-10-14T12:51:09.808-04:00BathtubsI remember the exact moment I became an Atheist. Most people don't have that-- that single moment of conversion. A lot of Christians do, the "born agains" all do. Most of them will happily recount for you the exact moment in time when they were "saved."<br /><br />I met a guy at the mall one time-- an older guy named Charles. Charles took it upon himself to proselytize to me, even though I had probably logged in more hours in the church than he had. I was a student a Grand Rapids Christian High who had been forced to go to church twice each Sunday since birth<span style="color:#ff6666;">*</span>. I also went to Sunday school each week and was forced (until my protests grew too loud for my parents to bother fighting against) to take part in weekly Cadets<span style="color:#ff6666;">** </span>meetings. There was little Charles, a new convert to the wonderful world of Jesus, could tell me about "the good news" that hadn't already heard a dozen or so times.<br /><br />Luckily, Charles wasn't from one of those churches were they stress "theology" and "thinking," oh no, he was from one of those "feeling" churches. Which, suffice it to say, as a member of the Christian Reformed Church, I was not well versed in.<br /><br />He told me about the day he was "saved": One day, Charles recounted, he was in the bathtub and all of a sudden he got a warm sensation (no, really, that's what he told me), he felt like everything in the room was glowing. It was the Holy Spirit and Charles knew-- he just knew-- that it was the Holy Spirit and that he had just been saved. Charles then relented from whatever unspecified sinful ways he had been indulging in and opened a Yamaha shop. I remember that he clarified that it was bikes, and not keyboards or keyboards and not bikes, but for the life of me, I can't remember which.<br /><br />After sharing his story, Charles asked if I were saved. Stupid, stupid me said: "I guess so." Charles and his Holy Spirit don't 'guess.' You know you are saved or you know you're damned. So Charles decided that because I couldn't specify the date, time and tub in which I was saved, I needed to be prayed for. Right there in the mall. The middle of the mall. At closing time. The security guards were making the rounds as the employees locked up their stores and the last few customers filtered out.<br /><br />Had this been the middle of the day with more people around, it would have been less of a spectacle, but since there were very few other people milling about we were the main event. As Charles laid his hands on me and prayed with his head tossed back (the better to reach god with, I guess), the empty mall became one giant echo chamber for Charles' efforts to save me. He fervently prayed for my soul, that I might "know the sweet love of you, dear Jesus and take in your spirit to transform [my] life" for all the employees of Woodland mall to hear.<br /><br />Of course, at the time, I was a Christian. Y'know, except for the part where I had serious doubts about the authenticity of the Bible and didn't really think of God as anything but something to yell at when life sucked, I still considered myself a Christian. This was during my "I just don't like organized religion" phase. Which means I still went to church, but I didn't like it. If I could find Charles again, I could really give him something to pray about now.<br /><br />A few years before I met Charles, I had my own conversion experience: my siblings and I were gathered in our basement as our father berated us for some awful sin or another. Perhaps we had said we'd rather watch "The Simpsons" than go to Youth Group-- something terrible like that. Already by this time, Dad had become less threatening to us and more ridiculous. Especially when he was trying to be righteous. This was around the same time that he started watching videos which blamed the Jews for the terrible state our country was in and when he had our house declared "The Church of the Second Chance" so he wouldn't have to pay property tax. Being the smart kids that we were, that whole 'honor thy father' thing was getting pretty tricky.<br /><br />Anyway, he was pointing out some speck in our eyes while ignoring the Viking long ships in his own when he pointed up at the ceiling and said "the big man upstairs isn't going to be very happy with you."<br /><br />My older brother (always the quickest wit in the group) replied, "There's a guy upstairs? What, is he taking a bath or something?"<br /><br />My father didn't find it very funny. His sense of humor had been killed off by years of hate and impotence. But my siblings and I loved it. We embraced the idea of a mysterious and uninvited figure hanging out in our bathroom. We named him Bathtub Jeff.<br /><br />We would caution each other not to incur the wrath of Bathtub Jeff. I always pictured him as a fat bald man, (with blue skin for some reason) scrubbing his back with a toilet brush and just barely able to cram himself into our tub. I imagined him yelling at us from the bathroom to "Knock that off!" as he struggled in vain to get himself out of the tub, displaced water sloshing over the side. But, of course, Bathtub Jeff couldn't get himself out of the tub. He kept slipping back into it, getting more frustrated until finally he'd stop his struggling and exhaustedly settle back into the tub, muttering something about those "damned kids downstairs."<br /><br />The moment Bathtub Jeff was born was the moment I became an Atheist. It'd be the better part of a decade before I'd admit it (even to myself) but the creation of Bathtub Jeff is what planted that seed. Something clicked in that moment and suddenly the notion of "the big man upstairs" was silly. It was absurd to think that there was this bloated being, looking down on us with disapproval but unable to do anything about it. Bathtub or no bathtub.<br /><br />Maybe Charles and my bathtub related conversions (him to and me from) are karma's way of keeping balance. Maybe that's just Nature's way of making sure everything stays in tune . . . Or maybe an old man made a tinkle while taking a bath and he misinterpreted it as a divine intervention. I guess we'll never know.<br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><br />*Actually, when we were little my twin sister and I didn't have to go to night church and instead would stay home watching "Charles in Charge." I think it's safe to say that I learned at least as much from "Charles in Charge" as I would have in church.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff6666;"><br />**The Cadets, for those of you not from the Christian Reformed Church, is like the Boy Scouts for Calvinists. We didn't just have to earn merit badges; we were predestined to earn them.</span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-49790594642985928702007-10-13T09:27:00.000-04:002007-10-13T11:16:19.378-04:00ArchivingI have sorely neglected this blog. But then again, so have you. I think we both have to share the responsibility for my failure. <br /><br />In an attempt to rectify that, I am posting most* of my old MySpace blogs to this site and will be using Bathtub Jeff as my primary blogging destination from here on out. <br /><br />Enjoy the archives and look for more new material coming some day other than today.<br /><br />~DF<br /><br />*except the non-irrelevant material, such as my classic review of Star Wars: Episode One ("Seriously, what's the deal with Jar Jar? And why the CGI Yoda? He's standing behind a desk, for crying out loud, that's what Muppets were <em>made</em> for!") and the like.Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-49350670814468191082007-09-21T12:24:00.000-04:002007-10-13T12:25:50.595-04:00Archive: Bitch!The show started fifteen minutes ago. I'm sitting in the box office, but we are no longer open for ticket sales because, again, the show started fifteen minutes ago.<br /><br />A woman walks in. She comes up to the window.<br /><br />"Can I help?" I say.<br /><br />"I need to get in," she says.<br /><br />"Do you have a ticket?"<br /><br />"No, I need to buy one.""I'm sorry, but the box office is closed for the evening."<br /><br />"You won't sell me a ticket?""No, I can't. The box office is closed down.""There are empty seats in there?""Yes.""And you won't let me go in?" "Well no, the box office is closed, I cannot sell you a ticket.""Well then I'm just going to go in." She leaves the box office and starts heading toward the door into the house. I hop up and cut her off.<br /><br />"M'am, you don't have a ticket, you can't go in.""You're being ridiculous. I'm ten minutes late and you won't let me in?""No, m'am, the show started fifteen minutes ago, I can't sell you a ticket and you can't go in without a ticket. We have another show tomorrow, you could come back then." "My children are in there, I'm going in. I can either give you twelve dollars or I can just walk in, those are you options."<br /><br />'How the fuck did she become the one in the position of power?' I think to myself, 'This is not how it works. You show up fifteen minutes late-- that does not entitle you to a free seat! And I'll be damned if I take your twelve dollars because in your head then I'll have kept the money and I refuse to have you think I'm as much of an asshole as you are!'<br /><br />"That's not really how it works--" I begin to explain."You're being ridiculous.""Okay, no, I'm not. This is how it works. It's not ridiculous, it's business. We are closed, therefore I can't sell you anything. Everyone else in there showed up on time and paid for their tickets--" "I'm going in."At this point, I wanted to push this five foot nothing woman to the ground and say "NO! GODDAMNIT! YOU ARE NOT IN CHARGE HERE! You are rude and mean and I hope your children hate you! If you had asked nicely, I would have let you in right away and that would have been it, but you fucking DEMANDED it as your fucking RIGHT as a fifteen minute late ASSHOLE to get to see (most of) the show for FREE! If I could, I would slap your parents for teaching you that you are somehow special and entitled to equally special treatment when you arrive late and act rude! Not only are you not special, you are an awful human being and I hope that ill befalls you! And because you are a rude and mean lady, no one will be there for you and your funeral will be more sparsely attended than Willy Lohman's!"<br /><br />In a desperate struggle to assert some power I say, "Fine, you can go in, but understand that we would not normally allow this." We both know it's a futile gesture, my pretending like I'm the one letting her go in. She walks past me the way I imagine she would drive past a pile of roadkill that she herself ran over a week prior-- she's vaguely disgusted by it, but still proud to have been the killer.<br /><br />I stood there for a moment, feeling as powerless as a eunuch in a whorehouse. How the hell did that just happen? Who the hell was that woman? And was I being ridiculous? I have often in the past let people into the theatre without tickets after the box office closed WHEN THEY ASKED NICELY. Hell, it didn't even really have to be all that nicely, they just had to ask. This woman told me: "I'm going in and that's that."<br /><br />Was it ridiculous of me to put up a fight? Well, sure, probably. Was I on a power trip? Yeah . . . I guess. But really: Can you blame me?<span style="color:#ff0000;">*</span> I mean, what a bitch!<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*Yes, yes you can.**</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"><br />**But seriously, have you ever heard of anything quite so bitchy before in your life?<br />I didn't think so.</span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8206247351831050881.post-57965087145896222002007-09-15T12:16:00.000-04:002007-10-13T12:21:23.253-04:00Archive: Hear Yee, Hear YeeA month and a half ago I got a phone call.<br /><br />"Hi, this is Carrie from Schmirch Fabrics<span style="color:#ff0000;">*</span>, Lynne Brown Schmepper<span style="color:#ff0000;">**</span> gave me your name as someone who might be interested in an acting job," the voice on the other end says.<br /><br />"Oh. Okay, sure," I said.<br /><br />"We're having a picnic and we need some one to dress up and make an announcement. And we'd pay you to do it." Carrie said<br /><br />Even though I don't understand at all what she's asking me to do, I do understand that she's offering me money so I say: "Alright. When and where?" We set up a time for me to come in a meet the group of people Carrie refers to as "us" (who's us? what us is this? I never really found out).<br /><br />About a month later, Carrie calls me again just to make sure I'm still planning on coming in. I tell her "yes," and blow yet another opportunity to find out exactly what it is that I've agreed to do. This happens partly because she called while I was suffering from my massive sinus infection and I, for a period of a week and a half or so, hated life and partly because, as a general rule, I'm bad at stuff.<br /><br />Last Friday, I went to meet with Carrie. I went to the Schmirch Fabrics office, told the receptionist that I had an appointment with Carrie and then sat down in the holding area, reading all about upcoming events in the September 2005 issue of Grand Rapids Magazine. Turns out, I missed what promised to be a totally awesome Aerosmith concert two years ago. How will I find the strength to go on?<br /><br />Carrie walks into the room to greet me. When I see Carrie, I wonder if Schmirch Fabrics is breaking child labor laws by employing this fourteen year old child. She ushers me into the conference room to meet everyone. "Don't worry," she tells me, "there's only going to be seven of us."<br /><br />Seven women ranging in age from the fourteen year old Carrie to 50ish. A whole range of shapes and sizes. As diverse a group as you can get from seven Dutch women who work in the office of a fabric and upholstery company.<br /><br />As I walk into the room I hear titters of "Oooh, he's tall!" and "Oh good the costume will fit!" and "Oh, the beard will work great!" It's weird to be ogled like a piece of meat. It's even weirder to be ogled like a piece of meat that someone wants to put in a funny hat and a pair of fake boots.<br />So I sit down at the head of the table and say 'hi' to everyone, more confused than ever about what it is they want me to do. It was like a scene from The Office, with the party planning committee interviewing entertainers for the big Christmas party. If only there had been a Pam in the room to share in my embarrassment for everyone else in the room.<br /><br />"Has Carrie told you what we want you to do?" asked woman 3.<br /><br />"Uhm, not really," I admitted my cluelessness.<br /><br />It was then explained to me that what they needed was someone to announce their Renaissance themed office party, so they wanted me to come in in a week, put on some Renaissance garb and read a proclamation to the assembled Schmirch Fabric employees. 'Oookay,' I thought, 'sounds simple enough, if not altogether kind of ridiculous.' "Oh, alright, sure," I said. "Have you ever done anything like this before?" asked woman 5.<br /><br />"I mean, I've acted before . . . I've never done something like this, exactly, but I've worn purple tights so it's not like I'm unaccustomed to looking silly in front of crowds of strangers." This inspired more giggling.<br /><br />"Oh, we won't make you wear tights," said woman 2. I was kind of disappointed. Not because I love wearing tights or anything, but because, frankly, my legs look really good in tights. I'm just saying.<br /><br />Anyway, woman 7 pulled a sheet of paper out of her folder and slid it over to me and then woman 4 said, "We don't want to put you on the spot here, but would you mind, y'know, standing up and giving us a reading, maybe?" Now, in an audition (which this ostensibly was), I generally expect to have to, y'know, audition so asking me to read is not so much 'putting me on the spot' as it is asking me to do the thing that I was asked to come in and do. So, I take the script, I stand up (more titters from woman 5 and 7, who came in late and as such didn't get to marvel at my height earlier) and I look at the script.<br /><br />Because, of course, it's all Renaissance-y, it's typed in some Renaissance-y font which is good, because if it were in a more readable script, I wouldn't have understood that it was supposed to be Renaissance-y and would have read it wrong. The script begins "Hear Yee, Hear Yee." Yup. "Yee."<br /><br />So, I start reading the script in my big Renaissance-y voice and the titters begin again "Oooh, my!" "It sounds even better than I thought it would!" I read about half of it and the titters grew to a crescendo so I stopped. "Oh that's great!" "Thank you for doing that!" Clap, clap, clap, applause, applause, applause.<br /><br />"Alright, great! That's going to be just perfect. Just perfect." says woman 5.<br /><br />"We've got everything set, the only question is, how much to pay you. I don't want to put you on the spot, but how much would you normally get paid for something like this?"<br /><br />Because I'm Dutch and because I've been poor all my life, and because my family ever only talked about money as a problem, I'm really bad about talking about money. It makes me very uncomfortable. Especially when it comes to evaluating my value. 'How much would I normally get for something like this?' Something like this has, to my knowledge, never really been done by anyone ever. It's like asking "How many people are usually killed in a Martian attack?"<br />I yammered out some "ye--err--idunn--uhm" and, sensing my continued cluelessness and discomfort, young little Carrie came to my rescue and said "How about $50 dollars?" Honestly? I was hoping for more. Not that I deserved it, but I've gotten used to getting paid $100 an hour for gigs and I thought maybe these people were just clueless enough to over-estimate my worth. And they did, just not as much as I would like them to. Realizing that $50 for three minutes of work was probably more than fair, I took the offer.<br /><br />Yesterday, at 9am, I drove down to Schmirch Fabrics. I met Carrie and was scuttled off into the conference room yet again. She quickly drew all of the curtains and, motioning to a series of plastic bags and a box formerly used for stationary, she says "There's your costume stuff. I'll give you ten minutes or so to put it on. I'll knock before I come back in." I start pulling things out of the bags, fearful that without having taken a single measurement from me, or even asking what size I wear, a costume has been picked out for me. I was fairly certain that this was going to fit about as well as the infamous Cap'n Crunch outfit I wore for Schmeritage Theatre Groups '02 production of Hamlet.<br /><br />I needn't have worried, though. These women are used to upholstering large pieces of furniture, so finding the right amount of fabric to cover my orangutan-like physique was no problem. The costume fit fine. And while I had been expecting something Renaissance-y, it turns out their idea of Renaissance-y is much more in keeping with my idea of Pirate-y. The inside label of the shirt actually called it a "Buccaneer" shirt. Granted, it wasn't a very tough looking pirate, but a nancy pirate is still a pirate.<br /><br />Once I was all pirated up, I opened up the stationary box (by which I mean both that it was once used to hold and transport paper products and that it was itself immobile) and pulled out the hat contained therein. This supposed Renaissance-y hat looked like an Indian Jones hat with three ostrich feathers attached to it. It was neither Renaissance-y nor particularly Pirate-y, but it was most definitely big pimpin'.<br /><br />I was coached by woman 5 on exactly how to conduct myself, then Carrie came back and taught me how to do a page (they wanted to have me do it so that no one would recognize the voice) to tell everyone to gather in the warehouse by the time clock in five minutes. While we waited for the right time to do the page, Carrie went and got Steve. I don't know why she got Steve, as his only purpose seemed to be joining Carrie and I in the conference room, gawking and making me feel very uncomfortable. I'm awkward enough meeting new people, but meeting new people while hiding in a fabric company conference room and wearing a pirate costume and Indian Jones' pimped out hat is about as 'awkward turtle' as you can get. He didn't even have any questions for me. And of course, the only question I had for him was "Why the hell are you here? Can't a guy dress up like a pirate in peace for five minutes?!"<br /><br />So, time came to make the page. I successfully managed to work the type of multi-line phone that I send five hours a day operating, impressing young Carrie once again with my mad skills. Then, she lead me to the back hall way and up a metal staircase to a grated floor where I was to wait for her signal and then head out to the balcony and begin to read my proclamation.<br /><br />As I stood there, fully exposed to members of my awaiting audience (probably the thing that makes me most uncomfortable as a performer is having audience members see me in costume when I'm not supposed to be seen. It even makes me uncomfortable when other actors are seen by the audience before it's time. I'm talking to you, John Schmoley.) I heard the people below speculating on what was going on. "Maybe it's someone dressed as Santa" one already drunk employee suggested. Apparently, she had seen my boots, or maybe the red pirate vest I was wearing, or perhaps even my beard or my girth and decided that, in fact, I was not a pimpin' pirate, but Jolly Ol' St. Nick. "Come on out, Santa, and get it over with!" Sweet Jeebus, I was being heckled before I even started!<br /><br />Then, from below me, I hear Carrie whisper calling to me "Dave, go. Go." So, I stroll out to the balcony and twelve feet below me are all twenty employees of Schmirch Fabrics. And Steve and women 's 1-7 had already seen me. 'Well, dozen Schmirch Fabric employees,' I thought to myself, 'prepare to be amazed!'<br /><br />As instructed, I walked up, blew the dollar store trumpet I had been given, set it on the ground next to me, then removed my hat and gave a big bow to the citizen of the Schmirch realm below. I pulled the scroll out of my belt and, as a juxtaposition to the pimpin' pirate look, I read out the scroll in my big Renaissance-y voice. Then, I bowed again, turned and left. Never have I left a crowd quite so dumbfounded/ put out to have had their precious fabric related work time interrupted for something so ridiculous.<br /><br />Back in the conference room, Carrie informed me that "Everyone is so excited now! They can't believe they have to wait a week for the picnic!" "Well, great," I said. "Sounds like it's going to be a lot of fun," I lied. She tossed me $50, which, of course I will be reporting to the IRS as earned income, and asked if I needed to see her for anything before I left. I told her I didn't think so, thanked her, offered up my services should she ever need another bearded pirate, to which she smiled politely but offered no kind of empty affirmation that she might, in fact, call again and then she left me to change back into my street clothes.<br /><br />'Do other actors do shit like this?' I thought to myself as I boxed up Indy's plumed hat. 'Hell, does anyone do shit like this?' I kind of figured they probably don't. But, hey, I got fifty bucks for dressing up like a pirate, when was the last time any of you schmucks did that?<br />Yeah, that's what I thought.<br /><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;">*the names have been changed to protect myself from liable charges.</span><br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"><br />**Thanks, by the way, Lynne.</span>Fletcherhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09080980832321497197noreply@blogger.com0